mind games making me want to scream

something happened yesterday with my "care team" and now i am so stressed and i know they are just playing mind games with me and waiting for me to fall for their trap but it is driving me mad and i want to scream. they could even be reading this for all i know. i know they were listening to my phone calls yesterday and i just cant stand it anymore i am so exhausted i have been so scared the last 2 days i have just been shaking all day and been physically sick 3 times from the anxiety and idk what to do anymore i tried to call a helpline even though i was scared and it didnt help and everything is a mess and i want this device out of my head and i know they are all planning to hurt me but i am scared they have spoken to HIM just to mess with me i know he is following me and trying to destroy me but i thought i had got far enough away for that and now it is all happening again and idk what to do i am so tired i cant sleep because i am too scared and i just cant do this anymore. nothing is helping. i know they are doing this on purpose they just want me weak so they can get me when i am down.