so low

feeling so so low. not communicating well, not functioning well but still somehow pulling on the armour to face work, be a mum. crumbling to dust inside, reserves are gone. i know it, and recognise it and im so angry at myself and feel so guilty that im back here. i just have fail at life on repeat.

trying to focus on the self care stuff, the exercise, fresh air, eating, but dragging myself through fire to do it. nothing seems to be making a dent at the moment. i need sleep most of all but seems thats notup to me, even with light meds.

so over this never ending cycle.

lj