Feeling confused and scared.

I can’t deal with this and I have no one I can talk to no one is listening.

I guess I can’t talk to anyone on here either.

@Gwynn Thanks for the reply, I cant get anymore extensions i have already had too many. i am struggling with self care it is too hard right now.

Today has been really bad again I havent managed to get anything done again and i saw my psychologist and they said they were worried and idk i am just strggling a lot. i dont really have it in me to write much at the moment but there is a lot going on.

@Eden1919 Hey, just sending some care and support.

Sometimes the best self-care really is to just do nothing - i.e. take a little break, give yourself some breathing room. It's hard if you then get hit with that guilt/pressure of feeling you're not doing enough, but no one can be 'on' all the time, and it's okay to get some rest and respite.

I haven't forgotten you @Eden1919 but I'm coming and going from Forumland.

I'm sorry the struggle is so hard x

@Jynx I have been trying to just rest for the last 3 days and things just keep getting worse.

@frog i wasnt upset with you. i had reached out on here, to friends, to family and to a helpline and everyone was too busy to talk to me so i was feeling quite like i wasnt worth anyones time.

I am still feeling really bad and scared and horrible and idk what else to do anymore i would sleep it off but i cant sleep and havent slept for days no matter how much i try it isnt happening. and i am just really agitated and my head feels all jumbled and chaotic and i want to scream and there is just so much going on.

I'm so sorry to hear it @Eden1919 - being unable to sleep is just the worst, and that will very likely be part of why you're feeling so agitated.

I hope you're able to reach out again when you can, to someone close to you or to any of the 24/7 crisis lines - no matter what your tired/irritable brain is telling you, you're always worth the time to be supported and cared for.

I wish I could do more to ease your distress... Sometimes for me when I'm really struggling (especially with sleep) it gets really fruitless to keep trying the same things to lull my brain into relaxation. And when we're distressed, it usually means our brains are in the fight/flight/freeze mode, which makes rest that much harder. So I tend to try to... shake things up might be the best way to describe it? Like if I've been lying awake in bed for hours I'll get up and go for a walk. If I've been watching lots of netflix and becoming restless, I'll try to do something creative to occupy my mind in a different way. If I've been in one room or one spot for too long, I'll try to get a change of scenery.

I'm thinking of you, sending you many sleepy vibes and soothing thoughts.

@Jynx @Gwynn thanks I have been trying a variety of things I have a sleep playlist with music and a nature sounds app and I tried having a warm shower and all sorts of things but nothing is helping me sleep. Idk what it is it just isn’t happening.