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Faith-and-HopeSenior Contributor
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AppleblossomSenior Contributor
As a young woman I studied and was involved on experiential level in many forms of therapy. None of it was really integrated at the time ... they were interests, courses and therapies for the self. It takes time, reflection and lived experience to integrate.
I suspect if I had not done body based therapies ... I would have become very psychotic and have been the first to go, euphemism ...
anchoring myself in body practises .. getting in touch with anger and tears ... in 3 hour long sessions a couple times a week for years .. ..at least I did not go numb ... and can feel for another human
My mother was totally contained .. I thought she was like a Sherman tank ...
I tried to express emotion & affection
YES it was private ... but not private health cover ... just me saving up in little bits.. then when married .. he was into private health .. and had been to the best clinics in America to deal with his schizophrenia .. we bonded on "dealing with schizophrenia"
In public system I was always told I was fine and to go away ... so i did and that is how I spent my time also raising kids plus plus.
Someone noted that I was doing very divergent things ... ie body based as well as cerebral .. and Jacques Lacan .. I dont know it was just what was in the courses at my uni.
Its been a long while since I broke anything in anger ... maybe 20 years ... mostly I currently deal with it through physical exertion ... by gardening or walking very fast.
I have a truckload of rage ... I just have to dissipate it in the most harmless way possible ... focus the energy musically ??? cant bash the piano in anger ... as had carpal tunnel and have quite delicate wrists ..
My mother and son play piano a lot more in anger .. I am helping him distinguish between it .. its not all bad .. as it is a great way to discharge ... but not good artistically or for health of the hand.
Few people are honest about their anger .. a lady once pointed the finger at me when I admitted to it ... but a year later her husband was on my door step ... with a bloody nose from her shot with saucepan ..
I no longer take things as personally any more ...
I have many subs ... integration of them ... how do we know ... we just need to be bit rounded out and have a range of feelings appropriate to situation
until recently there was NO CLOWN or little girl in me
The beginning of me actually feeling I could tell a joke with my students was very delicate ... I am passionate about teaching .. but it would sometimes it would come out all wrong .. my pain and anguish would slip in ... there might be a raucousness in tone or a metaphor that wasnt quite right for the age group ... I was very careful ... but now my unconscious is not quite as slippery ... and I shoot self in foot less.
a lot of parents gave me very good compliments in how I managed their kids over the years.
I may teach again when I am older .. I let it naturally wound down as I focussed on my son.
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Had to laugh @Faith-and-Hope applying the brakes again. @Former-Member We do get passionate and fixated on things which i think is not a bad thing. We just want to fix it all NOW. I hope you both sleep well💜😊💤😴
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AppleblossomSenior Contributor
you have already done your living for others .. @Former-Member its ok to live for yourself
I wont do it to hurt my son ..
but I can say that its more than that ... it really only works if you live for yourself ... rather than viscerally though another ... that creates weird unhealthy dependancies .. I am essentially a curious person .. I like to learn ... there are spiritual ways or aspects to life that seem to say to me .. its bearable its doable ... and I can stay here for the duration.
About a year ago .. The mods were linking to lots of different psychological sites with sub personalities or personas
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@Former-Member Please don't think I was making a judgement about your posts. It was a reflection on the things we share in common like being passionate and I said it with endearment. I don't want you to post less or change anything. I guess I also realised how well @Faith-and-Hope helps us to see it can't be all sorted out now which I appreciated as she's reminded me a few time before too. I really hope you aren't offended by it. 💜😊💐
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Faith-and-HopeSenior Contributor
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