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saltandpepperSenior Contributor
Anyone else cracking open a bottle at 3 in the afternoon? Feeling shitty. I don't even know why really, just been feeling shitty alot lately. I shouldn't have started drinking, just one I tell myself, just one because I have to function tonight when my boy comes over... i just want to go to drink and pass out. Anyone around?
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saltandpepperSenior Contributor
Cheers @BlueBay hope you've had a good day and enjoy your dinner
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BlueBaySenior Contributor
Hey @saltandpepper how are you this morning? Did you get much sleep. I kept waking up thinking about too many things.
What are you doing today
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saltandpepperSenior Contributor
@BlueBay you've had a busy week with a lot going on, makes sense your brain isn't wanting to switch off during the night. I hope it settles down for you soon. Even if you can't sleep, just lying in bed and trying to enjoy the rest and quiet is good.
My night was a bit all over the place. Just hung out on the forums chatting to everyone which helped improve my mood immensely. But then I started drinking--even though I knew it was a bad idea. Didn't go to a good place after that.
My GP prescribed me some new meds to help me sleep. I still didn't sleep much at all. She did say they may not be enough for me, but it was a starting point. I'm not super keen on going down the sleep meds road, they're problematic and I think they're more trouble than they're worth. Also read last night that a side affect of my antidepressants is insomnia. Amazing the things I'm just now learning despite having been medicated for years.
Thanks for checking in @BlueBay
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BlueBaySenior Contributor
@saltandpepper
I know what you mean about meds. I self sabotage with my meds and stop them every now and then. Not really sure why I do it. I'm back in them now but a low dose. Hopefully I'll stick with it. Actually I have a feeling it has a lot to do with my childhood. It's seeking out help. I think??
glad you stayed on here last night to tske your mind off things.
im sorry the drinking took you to bad places. Some days I wish I could just sit and drink but I can't handle any form of alcohol as it upsets my stomach terribly.
I'm waiting for littke A dad to pick her up. Then we're going to my parents. Actuslly even though tomorrow is Mother's Day I'm not looking forward to going. Think it will be a very short visit. I hate the looks I get. I can see her mind thinking snd judging me. I get scared to say much in fear of her attacking me verbally. So I tread very lightly. But it feels like I'm walking on eggshells with her all the time. I don't trust her. It's pretty sad to say that. She's my mum for goodness sake - yet all these years she's never been a "real" mum 😢
I'm sorry I'm venting in your post.
do you see your son today?
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saltandpepperSenior Contributor
@BlueBay Your mum though, forgive me for saying it, but she doesn't sound like a good person. Even if she is there glaring and judging, it's coming from someone who just isn't a good person, so why should her opinion matter? You're a much better, kinder, caring, loving person than she has ever been. Whatever she says or thinks, it just shouldn't matter, she hasn't earned the right, you know?
I've always been pretty good with my medication, I forget to take them sometimes but a few hours later I know about it. I tried going off them once, stupidly, really just to see if I could. That was a bad idea. Never do that again.
Yeah I'll see him this arvo.
Yeah, shit, mothers day. My psychologist has been telling me for a long time to cut ties with my mother. After having a bit of a severe PTSD episode recently, I finally managed to say something to her. Not to the extent that I would like; but I managed to send her a message telling her I need some space. If I rewind back a few years, I never imagined I'd be capable of doing that. I hope one day I will reach a point where I can say everything I need to say and be done with it. One step at a time
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BlueBaySenior Contributor
Yeah I understand what you mean @saltandpepper
I want to say a lot more to my mum but can't.
have a nice day xx
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BlueBaySenior Contributor
How are you going @saltandpepper
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saltandpepperSenior Contributor
Hey @BlueBay I don't know to be honest. Mentally drained at the moment. Thanks for checking in, means a lot. How did you go today?
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BlueBaySenior Contributor
Today went ok with my parents @saltandpepper
Not doing much now
im really tired though after been woken by little A at 5.45zm. Think an early night.
hope you're ok snd you sleep well tonight. Xx
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saltandpepperSenior Contributor
Glad it went ok today @BlueBay did you manage to clock some time with your Dad? You getting up to much tomorrow to celebrate your day?
Yeah haha little kids, man they wake up early. My little fella is up anywhere between 6-6:30 and he goes 100mph from then til bed time. Full of life he is
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