Evening my wonderful forum family and friends, well all I can say is it's been a day!!!!! Took all the baking to my sister's this morning and was meant to have breaky with her, until all of her kids minus two turned up thankfully only one had his babies with him. But it hit a trigger, I tried so dam hard to stay calm and present. They all miss the Aunt I use to be, you know the one that would be there for hours on end every second weekend, the one who gave the best hugs, the one that could take a joke or a scare....... Unfortunately one of the boys who showed up is an aggressive drunk and I have stood between him and his mother more than once and that was the trigger. He is unsafe when drunk (he was sober and rightly so at 7.30 in the morning) but my mind didn't see the sober nephew it saw danger and we had to leave. I feel pathetic and angry at myself. My session was difficult, I couldn't look her in the eyes at all after all that I have shared in the last two sessions before this one. It was the longest hour of my life. On an up note my NDIS funding came through, but all I have listened to all afternoon is who's responsibilty I will be on which day and what time. I know it's all for the saftey of me and my well being and hubby is doing an amazing job, because I know I am not good enough for him I am waiting for the annoyance, the frusration of having to do this for me kicks in and he needs to leave again.
I have so many tags, that I know that I won't end up being able to reply to and I am so very sorry. It warms my heart and it's appreciated that you take the time to post/tag me, I value you all and wish I was better at keeping up with whats going on for you all. Sending as much love as you can handle, more hugs then you know what to do with and a little stregnth if needed to get you through your respective nights
@Eve7 @Lee82 @Emelia8 @Bunniekins @Schitzo @Clawde @NatureLover @outlander
