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Let's talk DID and dissociation

Let's talk DID and dissociation

Hello all

@Former-Member, @Bellarose75, @BraveOne, @Nyx, @Fluttershy1, @Maggie, @Grace20212, @NoOne, @MySunrise, @Unlonely1, @destructive, @Lemonjuice and we are sure there are others who have DID or dissociation disorders but we haven't interacted with them so feel free to add others we missed.

We noticed that there is a lot of threads popping up about DID and decided that maybe having a thread we can all chat on and ask questions and give advice to each other would be good.

We thought we would start off by explaing who we are.

We call ourselves the dragon system.

Host/main/core goes by our username due to guidelines but the rest of us are happy to say our names it also helps people know who's responding.

Here is a list of all of us that we as a working system is aware of.

So I'm going to split it up into 3 groups, littles (0-10), middles (11-17) and bigs (18+).

So my littles are :

Kelly, 4, mute and trauma holder, Eshy, main

Sarah, 6, main

Strudle, 5, wolf shapeshifter, main

Brandon

Bianca

Brittney, 7, the BBB triplets

Sienna, 8, prefers CC

Dana, 4, trauma holder, AP

Leana, 6, trauma holder, AP

Cameron, 8, trauma holder

Kelsey, 5, trauma holder

Uunala, 4, trauma holder, Eshy

Stacey, 10

Tessa, 9, FS Trauma holder

My middles are:

Steph, 15, sporty, gender fluid

Daisy, 13, Artistic

Macey, 12, smart, Eshy

Repunzel, 16/17, Fictive

Elsie, 17, littles helper

Erin, 15, trauma holder, Sh, main

Iris, 11, positive empath, littles caretaker, main

Chloe, 14, littles caretaker, clean freak (possibly ocd)

Mermaid Princess, 15/17, unknown language

Zayella, 15, sad/grief empath, inner world protector

Casey, 13, troublesome, sh

Evie, 15/16, fictive

My bigs are:

Sapphire,18, wolf shapeshifter, system protector, main

Harmony, 30, protector, main

Honey, 19, sexual

Grant, age Slider, 18-25,

Lana, 20, negative empath

Holly, age unknown, demon, system persecutor, is a main but currently locked away

Twilight, age unknown, dragon, gatekeeper

We know not all people with DID have an inner world but we do. Host created inner world as an escape when she was 9 and it has become a major part of our system. For anyone wondering twilights role as gatekeeper is literally that our inner world is surrounded by a brick wall and has a large gate outside that is a giant Forrest and twilight keeps the bad out. Holly came before twilight did so it's probably the only reason she made it in.

We also have C-PTSD, anxiety, depression, social anxiety, and panic disorder. Host is severe asthmatic as well which we suppose makes us all asthmatic.

Anyway hope you like the idea of this thread and we are happy to chat anytime but we do apologize if we don't always answer straight away

Thanks

Harmony/babydragon

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Re: Let's talk DID and dissociation hi

Evening all, just popped back to say goodnight. I had planned on being around tonight but other alters have other ideas.

@Former-Member the picture/image you shared hasn't come through yet. Will check tomorrow.

@Former-Member @destructive @MySunrise @Unlonely1

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Re: Let's talk DID and dissociation hi

Good morning all, so my one bonus for today is I got 4 hours solid sleep best night sleep in weeks. @Former-Member , you certainly have a lot that you are navigating right now. Planning a wedding on top of all of that must be exhausting. Family's really don't make life easy a lot of the time, mine certainly don't. Wishing you a gentle day my friend.

@destructive , I hope you are still resting well and that your night has been gentle and peaceful. I use to be high functioning with DID, but an assault in Dec 2019 really pulled the string holding me together and for the first time ever I can no longer carry out this simplest task without completely falling apart. Hope today is sweet, people are kind and you make it through today with a little smile.

@MySunrise , good morning lovely. Whatever is on the air can well and truly got the bleep away. Hope today your struggles seem a little less, the light and love around you a little stronger and that when this evening comes you can look back over your day and say I did the very best I could and I am proud of myself for that.

@Unlonely1 , hello friend. Whatever you are doing today may you find moments of peace and moments of love in your day.

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Re: Let's talk DID and dissociation hi

@Bellarose75 @Former-Member @destructive @Unlonely1Guess what everyone. We all made it through another day!

Go gently. Hugs

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Re: Let's talk DID and dissociation hi

And sometimes that is all we can do @MySunrise Today was a hard one and tomorrow is also usually the same, I have my mental health appointments every week on Thursday and Friday's 😟 so exhausted hoping night meds kick in soon. Hope everyone has a decent nights sleep.

@Former-Member @destructive @Unlonely1

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@Bellarose75 I've been there- where sleep is such a struggle. It hurts. I hope you get some decent sleep and your appointments go well tomorrow.

@MySunrise glad to see you! Yes, surviving is the goal I guess. Be nice to do more than that but that's the basis.

@Former-Member @Unlonely1 thinking of you both

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Re: Let's talk DID and dissociation hi

Morning fellow systems and others popping in,

How is everyone today?

After a difficult night, lots of coffee and a 5-6hour car ride ahead I have a very noisy head.

A few of my littles have currently managed to get themselves into that spot in my head where they aren't fronting but I can here them and at least one of them has decided that constant screaming in that space is a good idea and my head is pounding. On top of that there is definitely others in that space and all though I can't hear them distinctly they are noisy which is creating a buzz in my head on top of them screaming and no one else seems capable of getting to that space right now and I can't block them out when they are in that space never have been able to.

So it's gonna be a fun day.

Babydragon

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Re: Let's talk DID and dissociation hi

Hi everyone, I've been keeping a low profile. Last week was a shocker. This week seems ok but I'm noticing that my head feels so dizzy and my body feels empty. Everyone is going gently inside thankfully. Maybe they realised how hard they pushed me to the edge last week.

@Former-Member I hope the car ride wasn't too loud for you and everyone is settling now.

@destructive @Bellarose75 @Unlonely1 and anyone else, hope you are doing okay.

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@MySunrise , I am truly sorry to hear that you where pushed so hard last week. I hope this week has been a little easier for you. I have been a little absent myself it definitely has been a challenging week. My life seems impossible at the moment and I don't know which way is up most days. @Former-Member , I am sorry they decided to be that way for you right before a long road trip. I hope you arrived at your destination safely. I feel your pain with the little screaming thing. My littles have been in fear mode since Monday and they make doing things that are really hard even worse and they get far to loud when like this. @destructive , how have you been? I have started new night meds tonight so here's hoping I sleep longer than 3 hours.

@Unlonely1 , I hope you are doing ok

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So one of the blessings (if you can call any of this that) I guess of having a Dissociative disorder is somehow your mind goes nope not today demons and pushes it away for them to be dealt with another day!! I am guessing an alter is trying to protect us to a point, we have family coming today and there will be 12 of them. I haven't had more than two people in my home for two years and I don't think there is enough prescribed medication in the world to deal with today. But there is an eerie calm about the system this morning and that's a little unsettling.

Whatever you are all up to today I hope it's calm, loving and gentle. @Former-Member @MySunrise @destructive @Unlonely1

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Hi @Bellarose75 , @Former-Member , @destructive , @Unlonely1 and anyone else. I hope everyone got through Mother's Day intact. I know it can be a triggering day.
I think I've had the most successful Mother's Day in years. Like you said @Bellarose75 , protectors coming to the rescue. Actually, I think I've had several working together with me today. I'm thankful and proud of them.
I hope tomorrow is a safe and gentle day for everyone.

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