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Let's talk DID and dissociation

Let's talk DID and dissociation

Hello all

@Former-Member, @Bellarose75, @BraveOne, @Nyx, @Fluttershy1, @Maggie, @Grace20212, @NoOne, @MySunrise, @Unlonely1, @destructive, @Lemonjuice and we are sure there are others who have DID or dissociation disorders but we haven't interacted with them so feel free to add others we missed.

We noticed that there is a lot of threads popping up about DID and decided that maybe having a thread we can all chat on and ask questions and give advice to each other would be good.

We thought we would start off by explaing who we are.

We call ourselves the dragon system.

Host/main/core goes by our username due to guidelines but the rest of us are happy to say our names it also helps people know who's responding.

Here is a list of all of us that we as a working system is aware of.

So I'm going to split it up into 3 groups, littles (0-10), middles (11-17) and bigs (18+).

So my littles are :

Kelly, 4, mute and trauma holder, Eshy, main

Sarah, 6, main

Strudle, 5, wolf shapeshifter, main

Brandon

Bianca

Brittney, 7, the BBB triplets

Sienna, 8, prefers CC

Dana, 4, trauma holder, AP

Leana, 6, trauma holder, AP

Cameron, 8, trauma holder

Kelsey, 5, trauma holder

Uunala, 4, trauma holder, Eshy

Stacey, 10

Tessa, 9, FS Trauma holder

My middles are:

Steph, 15, sporty, gender fluid

Daisy, 13, Artistic

Macey, 12, smart, Eshy

Repunzel, 16/17, Fictive

Elsie, 17, littles helper

Erin, 15, trauma holder, Sh, main

Iris, 11, positive empath, littles caretaker, main

Chloe, 14, littles caretaker, clean freak (possibly ocd)

Mermaid Princess, 15/17, unknown language

Zayella, 15, sad/grief empath, inner world protector

Casey, 13, troublesome, sh

Evie, 15/16, fictive

My bigs are:

Sapphire,18, wolf shapeshifter, system protector, main

Harmony, 30, protector, main

Honey, 19, sexual

Grant, age Slider, 18-25,

Lana, 20, negative empath

Holly, age unknown, demon, system persecutor, is a main but currently locked away

Twilight, age unknown, dragon, gatekeeper

We know not all people with DID have an inner world but we do. Host created inner world as an escape when she was 9 and it has become a major part of our system. For anyone wondering twilights role as gatekeeper is literally that our inner world is surrounded by a brick wall and has a large gate outside that is a giant Forrest and twilight keeps the bad out. Holly came before twilight did so it's probably the only reason she made it in.

We also have C-PTSD, anxiety, depression, social anxiety, and panic disorder. Host is severe asthmatic as well which we suppose makes us all asthmatic.

Anyway hope you like the idea of this thread and we are happy to chat anytime but we do apologize if we don't always answer straight away

Thanks

Harmony/babydragon

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@Bellarose75

NDIS scares me. I'd have the world know I'm not what I appear.

So good to hear from you @Bellarose75

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I totally get it, I am the same but hubby had run out of leave and I still need 24/7 monitoring. The best thing is you don't have to use aged care agencies you can hire people that you want providing they are not family so as far as the rest of the world is concerned they could be just new friends. Even if you don't need to have a support worker it could cover your Psychologist and maybe some other cost you occur because of your mental health.

I hope you have had an ok day @MySunrise

I am also mid 40's

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Hi @Bellarose75, @MySunrise, @Unlonely1, @destructive, @Jynx, and everyone else who I haven't mentioned,

I am still here just rough time at the moment and really struggling

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Morning @Former-Member, there must be something in the air😟 I am struggling a lot at the moment too. Take care of yourself my friend.

@MySunrise @Unlonely1 @destructive morning all

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Hi @Bellarose75 @Former-Member @Unlonely1 @destructive @Jynx

I'm completely in agreement that there's something in the air. Today is hard hard hard.
Hang in there everyone

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Honestly we are surprised we're still functioning and nobody around seems to notice that we are struggling.

We gonna put a trigger warning on just in case but we got some heavy stuff going on.

Content/trigger warning
Content/trigger warning
So we found out our biological male creator is going to be released again as the justice system seems to think age has something to do with being reformed honestly we don't think people like him will ever be reformed
Our niece is going in for a surgery to get a stent (we think it's what it's called) put on her heart.

Our sister is relaying everything we say or do to our mother and it's causing problems, such as doing a joint loan with a really good friend as we both need money even though when she needed it we did a $1000 dollar loan in our name and then ended up paying the repayments she still hasn't paid us back. And our mother knows nothing because we kept our word when she asked us not to tell.

Our mother is having a tantrum because we are not having a white wedding dress

Planning a wedding is seriously difficult because of all the covid crap

We've been having troubling thoughts or switching like crazy just to cope.

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@Former-Member , how do we put that warning on our posts?

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@Former-Member Good on you for downloading.
Wow though. That's a lot of stuff you've got going on. No wonder you are struggling. You must be very good at masking if no one close to you can see what's going on for you. Humans are dumb.
Thanks for the trigger warning. I didn't know that was a thing. I wish I could download here. I almost didn't get through today, somehow it happened though.

Too many people inside are having a say. I have had to delete a whole lot of stuff. Congratulations on getting married though. Who cares what colour your dress is, it's your day.


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Sorry everyone is having a bad time @MySunrise @Former-Member @Bellarose75 @Unlonely1 definitely something in the air, other people I know too

@Bellarose75 @MySunrise I don't think I can use NDIS. I guess if DID is what I have I have some part that somehow manages to function at a high level so I don't think I'd qualify. It's hard because I kind of want to just fall apart in a heap but I don't know how to let that part go. Fees unsafe to be anything but together in other peoples eyes! This is one things that confuses me. I know many others with DID struggle with daily functioning where as I don't. That doesn't mean my life is easy, far from it. And it's all just a facade. As soon as no one is looking I crumble and self deatruct. It's a very lonely painful existence.

@Former-Member that is a lot to have going on! And I'm sure those family dynamics are even more complicated than words can express. When are you getting married? How are you feeling about that?

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@Bellarose75

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