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Let's talk DID and dissociation

Unknown userMember16 Mar 2021, 12:57 pm AEDT

Let's talk DID and dissociation

Hello all

@Former-Member, @Bellarose75, @BraveOne, @Nyx, @Fluttershy1, @Maggie, @Grace20212, @NoOne, @MySunrise, @Unlonely1, @destructive, @Lemonjuice and we are sure there are others who have DID or dissociation disorders but we haven't interacted with them so feel free to add others we missed.

We noticed that there is a lot of threads popping up about DID and decided that maybe having a thread we can all chat on and ask questions and give advice to each other would be good.

We thought we would start off by explaing who we are.

We call ourselves the dragon system.

Host/main/core goes by our username due to guidelines but the rest of us are happy to say our names it also helps people know who's responding.

Here is a list of all of us that we as a working system is aware of.

So I'm going to split it up into 3 groups, littles (0-10), middles (11-17) and bigs (18+).

So my littles are :

Kelly, 4, mute and trauma holder, Eshy, main

Sarah, 6, main

Strudle, 5, wolf shapeshifter, main

Brandon

Bianca

Brittney, 7, the BBB triplets

Sienna, 8, prefers CC

Dana, 4, trauma holder, AP

Leana, 6, trauma holder, AP

Cameron, 8, trauma holder

Kelsey, 5, trauma holder

Uunala, 4, trauma holder, Eshy

Stacey, 10

Tessa, 9, FS Trauma holder

My middles are:

Steph, 15, sporty, gender fluid

Daisy, 13, Artistic

Macey, 12, smart, Eshy

Repunzel, 16/17, Fictive

Elsie, 17, littles helper

Erin, 15, trauma holder, Sh, main

Iris, 11, positive empath, littles caretaker, main

Chloe, 14, littles caretaker, clean freak (possibly ocd)

Mermaid Princess, 15/17, unknown language

Zayella, 15, sad/grief empath, inner world protector

Casey, 13, troublesome, sh

Evie, 15/16, fictive

My bigs are:

Sapphire,18, wolf shapeshifter, system protector, main

Harmony, 30, protector, main

Honey, 19, sexual

Grant, age Slider, 18-25,

Lana, 20, negative empath

Holly, age unknown, demon, system persecutor, is a main but currently locked away

Twilight, age unknown, dragon, gatekeeper

We know not all people with DID have an inner world but we do. Host created inner world as an escape when she was 9 and it has become a major part of our system. For anyone wondering twilights role as gatekeeper is literally that our inner world is surrounded by a brick wall and has a large gate outside that is a giant Forrest and twilight keeps the bad out. Holly came before twilight did so it's probably the only reason she made it in.

We also have C-PTSD, anxiety, depression, social anxiety, and panic disorder. Host is severe asthmatic as well which we suppose makes us all asthmatic.

Anyway hope you like the idea of this thread and we are happy to chat anytime but we do apologize if we don't always answer straight away

Thanks

Harmony/babydragon

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Unlonely1Senior Contributor21 Mar 2021, 2:16 pm AEDT

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Unknown userMember21 Mar 2021, 2:16 pm AEDT

Re: Let's talk DID and dissociation

Hey everyone, just introducing three alters who decided they wanted to be in on this.

Adrian/Addy. She/He/They pronouns. Eternal/No Age

Fiction. They/Xem. 3,000.

And El/Jane (a fictive). She/They. 14.

We finally decided to take a break from our boyfriend, while he figures himself out.
Some of us hope it's not the end, some of us do. It's very confusing.

Hope everyone is doing well!

- Addy

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Fluttershy1Senior Contributor21 Mar 2021, 3:10 pm AEDT

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Hihi @Bellarose75 -

not a good day for me

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Unlonely1Senior Contributor21 Mar 2021, 4:59 pm AEDT

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destructiveSenior Contributor21 Mar 2021, 9:08 pm AEDT

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@Bellarose75 yes my puppy is 10years old. She's doing a lot better. It makes me feel a little better knowing other T say those rules. It's not necessarily about me, just standard rules. Just her response scared me. Memory is a hard thing. ok, I haven't told this to anyone yet, I want to tel my T but not sure. Trigger warning CSA material, skip to end of ***** if you need to

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I saw on Qld police site they had this thing about sharing some general content from images they're investigating. Things like a shirt or hat or sheet pattern that's quite distinct. I was just curious so had a look and there are two things on there that I think I have seen. Obviously doesn't mean anything even if I had because I'm sure they're both mass produced but it gave me that dejavu feeling and sickness. I think I know where one is and could go check but would involve going to someone's house I really don't like and also not sure I want to know. I have nothing to report as it's just a feeling and I think they're after stuff like where the product was sold and what year. Anyway, just one of those things I can get off my mind.

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@MySunrise and @BraveOne I think you were both talking about consent. I have a though but you might not have any ideas and that's ok, just ignore. What do you do if you have a part that doesn't want to be talked about but that they are causing so much pain trouble? T keeps asking about one particular one because of how much they effect me but I guess I don't have consent and not sure if ever get it but just ignoring that part is t helpful either. So tricky

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BraveOneSenior Contributor22 Mar 2021, 11:38 am AEDT

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@MySunriseIm realising theres many layers to my internal world...and I may have my own ideas and thoughts about life and it seems many of my alters do too. If I am going to talk about anything about this internal world to anyone in the outside world I usually check in and see if thats ok first . Having a conversation about it and getting clear whats ok to share and whats not and checking in when something new emerges is all part of it for Us. I often think is speaking about this going to enhance my relationship with that alter or not? How can be respectful and collaborative taking my place as One of many internally .

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BraveOneSenior Contributor22 Mar 2021, 12:10 pm AEDT

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@destructive finding ways of talking without identifying the alter is something I negotiate with them. Naming behaviour that Im finding challenging and brainstorming other ways to deal with it .... if its harming the body or another alter its something important. What Ive found is that some alters feel immense shame when they behave in ways that may upset another or hurt the body or fear of getting into trouble . Relationships internally are just like relationships externally with other people. I realised I cant demand or be forceful... it doesnt work and I end up feeling like shit too . so being compassionate and understanding seems to work lately.

I have one alter Ive known about for 10years who never spoke to me and now things are moving along and we talk. its taken patience and commitment for them to feel safe to be revealed.

Recently there was new behaviour that came about that was harmful so although I was freaking out and judging the situation after a while I wanted to know who was having difficulty and how to offer them another resource thats a safer way to deal with things so there is choice . Initially im like scared by what happened then after focusing on the behaviour I offered alot of compassion for the pain that was there in a general way by naming the pain and moving away from the activation ..... took a while to figure it all out and its still a mystery unfolding however talking warmly has been helping and Im trying something new to soothe their pain before things get outta control again.

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Unlonely1Senior Contributor22 Mar 2021, 12:16 pm AEDT