D.I.D + C-PTSD + Life

It's funny though I have been here before I stare at the screen and really don't know where to start. I thought I had hit rock bottom a few times, but it was just uneven ground. I hit rock bottom over the last two weeks and have slipped into a crack. I stare up and I can see my life, my family and friends, my choices and the choices of others who seek to hurt us is some way and it a very bleak world up there. I have promised us that we will be responsible for our thoughts and our actions and start earnestly moving forward, but it scares the hell out of us.

I am a married mother with 4 adult children and one beautiful preteen granddaughter. All of the children have their own mental health issues and struggle with everyday life and the preteen has more sass in her than is good for her. We have 2 child alters or littles and a total of 5 adult alters that we are aware of or connected with, unfortunately they have decided to that a 16 year old drunk is the best alter to be present at the moment. I am sober now as there is an acohol ban in place (NOT HAPPY JAN)