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@Eden1919 Have you tried smudging? We did that twice at our place and it helped a bit. I threw out everything that was black in my wardrobe. Once my daughter woke me up screaming because she could see a demon in the shadows of her room circling her .... I got online and searched for help re demons. The internet is your friend.

@Eden1919

I can understand that. I have felt the same and had the same in the past. I wish I could help further. All I can say is I am here and if it helps to write here, keep writing.

You mention you are getting really nervous about seeing your psychologist again. I'm wondering if it is possible to email your psychologist and let them know that you are feeling nervous about seeing them again and why? Do you think that might be helpful to you?

@Bunniekins maybe you could help with some suggestions on that?

Powderfinger.

Hi @Eden1919 I'm thinking of you.

I've been reading along.

Those experiences that you and also @Powderfinger @Bunniekins @Former-Member describe are really terrifying and I'm glad that you can come here and share them.

I have tried smudging like greenpea. I believe there was a shift in the energy at my little place. Even if there isn't, it's a symbolic way to signal that you are doing your best to get the bad stuff out the door.

hi @Eden1919 thats alot to deal with on your own know that you have friends here who are listening ,although I probly cant fully understand as Ive not experienced that myself although in terms of one thing I can relate is that while going through the worst of my feelings and thoughts that I kept to myself last week,I did have one night when as I was trying to sleep in my room my mind was so full of negative thoughts I thought I heard 3 different voices talking about me or to me outloud when I was trying to fall asleep but had so much on my mind although it sounded like nice voices I thought it was maybe angel voices trying to comfort or soothe me or as if someone was praying for me and after that I had a beautiful nights sleep. it must be so hard though dealing with a negative experience like your going through

@Powderfinger Hi Powderfinger problem is it is all so real...... I remember feeling the demon on my skin. How can one explain such a phenomena to a psychologist or a psychiatrist? I know exactly what they would think that you are psychotic and need to be hospitalised immediately. I just think as @frog said it is very important to shift the mood by for example smudging into a more positive vibe otherwise it is all consuming and the demon has won. Let in the light , open the windows to let fresh air in and be around as many positive people as you can tolerate.

We are here for you @Eden1919

@Former-Member @Powderfinger @frog @LostAngel @Bunniekins thanks everyone, I havent tried smudging although I am not sure it would work because it is to clear out spaces and frankly I think the demons are somehow attached to me as i have lived in 3 different spaces now and they have followed me to each and every one of them. I have tried looking online for options but I cant find anything that matches with my specific experiences. I dont think telling the psychologist would be helpful she is not a human she is actually a kind of demon herself but one that can shapeshift into human form. and she is working with the beings that are trying to hurt me so even if she knew i was scared it wouldnt change anything. I have also felt the demons breathing down my back and neck at times. i know why the demons are here but I cant make them go away and they know that so all i can really do is ignore them as much as possible.

the demons are here because the devil is mad at me and well there is a lot i can explain on here but they are very real and honestly i think there is only one way to get rid of them but anyway I am trying my best it is just very very hard.

Hi there @Eden1919,

I'm glad you're here and sharing what you're going through as it sounds pretty scary. I can see you're feeling a bit stuck as nothing seems to be helping right now, and you can't talk to your psychologist or Lifeline. You're also trying your best to ignore the thoughts! I hope you can remember some strategies that have helped in the past.

I'm just going to send you an email to check in privately. I do encourage you to reach out to a helpline for some one-on-one professional support:

Suicide Call Back Service 1300 659 467
Beyondblue Support Service 1300 22 46 36

Here with you,

Sphinxly

@Eden1919

In addition to smudging your home, you can smudge yourself too. From head to toe. Unsure if you have done it before? There will be lots of videos to show you how on you tube. You can also google different types of sage. My favorite is white sage.

I'm.glad you have reached out here. I know you do not feel comfortable talking to helpines. From my perspective I feel a bit helpless as I am not close by to pop.in for a visit and go hang out somewhere. I'd encourage you to talk to the same member who contacts you. It's at least someone right?

The things you have told us all here, if you told your psychologist these things, what do you think she would do/say? What makes you nervous?

@Former-Member I haven’t had good experiences with those helplines either.

@Powderfinger I will look into the smudging more, it isn’t just the things I have shared on here it is all the other stuff I haven’t shared with anyone that is what worries me will come out besides my psychologist will just try and trick me again so that I do what the beings want from me.

@Eden1919

Yes, do look into the sage more. Would you mind sharing with us here how your psychologist tricked you before? I'd also like to know what these beings want from you? What would happen if you were to actually say no to them in a very firm but clear voice. Like you are the boss of a really big ass company and just because your employees boss you around telling you their thoughts about what you should be doing with your company, you are still the boss with the final decision and can say no. A bit if a metaphor in regards to these beings trying to force you to do things? Do you think this is a possibility at all?