notreallymeCasual Contributor
Crumbling
Hi,
Dunno how to start so I’ll just start.. I’m feeling like my world is crumbling around me.
My Mum recently had a fall & spent a month in hospital, which has brought a lot of issues around her age to the forefront. Including the possibility of us having to move in with her. She lives in the house where my dad used to physically abuse my mum & sister. I hate that house.
My husband (been together over 15yrs) is going through some heavy stuff that he’s only recently felt able to tell me (there were 3 very heavy, life changing incidents as a child/teen by different people). He really needs to talk to someone professionally but he’s not quite ready. And he also doesn’t think they will be able to help him (I disagree)
My stepdaughter has decided it’s too painful for her so she wants nothing to do with him till he gets help. He feels completely abandoned by her because of this & because as he puts it ‘he’s never learnt to forgive’ he says that his hurt is just turning to hate.
The fracturing of my family is killing me inside
And just to round it out, my work is grinding me down. My site manager has been grinding morale into the floor for 7 months now. 2 other managers have quit, and if I didn’t have debts, I’d probly do the same.
So, I don’t feel I’m being melodramatic when I say I feel my world is crumbling around me. It’s now at the stage where I feel apprehensive & anxious not every moment of the day, but pretty close... I hate being in the middle & it kinda just makes me shutdown... So I know I should go talk to someone but I HATE face to face counselling because people are judgemental & I just don’t need the judgey eyes while I’m unloading... I thought I might try the chat services here but I’m still hesitant for some reason. So does anyone have any feedback on a chat counselling service?
