bad depression ?

Hi I'm new to this as well and suffer bad depression. I manage this with medication and exercise and routine. Although I'm not working and find it hard to get into a routine all the time. I can emphasise with you as depression is really hard to live with.

Hi @Nelson1 welcome to the forum, Sorry to hear how bad the depression is.

I'm ok at the moment, but get episodes of depression. It can be debilitating to the point of feeling like there's no way forward.

I struggled for decades before I got useful help, and I now have really good support. Do you have a good gp? Some of them are really good on mental health, and some seem a bit clueless. It's worth searching for a good one who gets it.

Take care.

Hi, thanks for the reply. The medicine i:m on is not working and to tapper off I have to go through even more extreme depression. I was going to the gym but gave it up because it was becoming too much. I have a lonely problem. I'm retired and I don't know anyone where I live though I go to the "men's shed" which helps. I have a lot of problems that are coming to a head within the next couple of months and I'm hoping that it will help my head heal. Cheers Cliff

Hey @Sarah123 @Nelson1good on you for trying to help yourselves. I do too but it is certainly tiring work & challenging to keep up routines & socialise at times. Many including close family & friends don't get it because Fortunately they have not experienced it (lucky things!). Let's stand strong together. We might be in the minority but we matter and our efforts count. Wishing you well (literally!)

Hi Sam3,

Thanks for the reply. I don't know what I'm going to do.. If this feeling would just piss off. I was going to try ECT (shock treatment. but the reports I'm hearing is that it destroys your memory. oh to be normal would be so nice. Talking on a forum helps a lot. It lets you know that you are not the only one going through this.

Hi all, Has anyone out there had ECT shock treatment. I have been told that it destroys your memory.

Hi Nelson1,

Yes I have had it and yes unfortunately it did destroy my memory. Because of this my instinct is to say to avoid it but when I think about it, it did pull me out of a very dark place.

I was seeing my psychiatrist when one day he asked me if I would like to go and stay in hospital and it was like the most comforting sounding thing I could have heard. I said yes straight away and was taken to a private clinic/hospital.

I don't have all my memories from being there but I do know that from the state I was in I definitely improved due to ECT.

I had a lot of treatments which due to memory loss I do regret having the last lot. I don't want to say not to do it if you feel you need it though. I feel that it was mainly due to the large amount of treatments I had.

It is possible to just have a few sessions every couple of months which might help I don't know.

In regards to memory loss I do feel like it has had a major damaging effect on my life. I can no longer remember the joy I had growing up or a lot of the fun times I had with my parents and family which gives me less of a happy outlook on life. I know I had those times but not being able to remember them leaves me feeling that I lost the grounding of happiness I was given from my parents. (Sorry to be so depressing !) and so hope/confidence about the goodness of life.

Don't mean to sound dramatic but you know... I've got depression 😃

Let me know if you have any questions I'm very happy to answer.

Juliet xx