@JennAly Well done for reaching out, I have also stuggled with depression and anxiety for around 40 years in the past and sometime you can feel alone and extremely overwhelmed, but it gets better over time. There are a few really good depression and anxiety recovery programs out there, one is Neil Nedley anxiety and depression recovery program and the other is the live more project. Through these program I have made a full recovery, they were life changing for me. It gives you all the tools you need to over come any issues that you have, from addication, diet, exercise, forgiveness, CBT, mindfullness, resilence and relationships etc. Give these at look on google, most of the time the programs are free as well. There is hope for you out there JennAly, whether the storm it is always gets calmer on the other side and you are not on your own.
Warm Regards
Haystacks