how life is looking for now

Hi everyone just a more upbeat/reflective post on how things are going currently self care has become my number one priority and is an ongoing work in progress all things healthwise,physically and emotionally always room for improovement In Terms of getting Counselling in Particular to help deal with Anxiety/depression ect I have been a little slow at it but am getting there am trying to think of places ect to call,at the momment my phone is a frustration as I am needing to set up a new one as the old phone is pretty much had it aka frustrating to use now so once my new phone is set up that will help improove my ability to communicate with family and friends so I am currently working on getting info off my phone to my laptop so that nothing is lost as I have anxiety about loosing important photos,messages ect,communication itself has been more of an issue lately regardless of my phone being a pain as there are some family conflict/misunderstangs happening as all families do we disagree and ague from time to time but anyway since the weekend Ive been worried cause one family member got so upset about not being invited somewhere,a small family get together for my Brothers Birthday which was only organised on a whim between me and small part of our family so not everyone was there or able to be there in the first placebut one person sent the worst messages to be and others who where at the get together because they hadnt been invited to the get together,now as you guys on the forums would know Ive been dealing with some internal issues as of late and it was understandle for this person to be upset but they took it too far by unfriending me and another family member who orgaized the get together,but we did not orgaize a lat minute party for my brother to offend or make anyone else in the family upset it was simply something to help ourselves feel happy,to have a bit of fun and have an emotional/social outlet after how things have been this year so its frustrating that one person got so upset that wasnt called for I admit I made the mistake and should have invited this family member but with whats been going on in my own head ect and I know Im usually more inclusive about having as many family around as possible but thats just not how things could go this time besides the other family member who was helping me organize this get together is clearly emotionally different as well after the lockdowns theyve endured as they have been stuck in melbourne for a majority of the past months so I guess to me it doesnt feel fair or right to put a heap of preaure on us all cause frankly Ive noticed a change in family around me cause of the lockdowns that have happend we all have emotional scars from that so to speak I felt sorry for the one who helped organize the party that someone else decides theyre offended for not being invited to it and I know its out of character for me not to invite everyone like usual but everyones been going through stuff emotional stuff.anyway we still had a good time but yes theres always some form of family drama I guess,now to today its been a relatively good day I went out to do some clothes shopping,got some Bargains on sale and treated myself to lunch from my favourite Bakery,the weather cleared up today somewhat despite it being a rather cold morning to begin with oh yes and to do with counselling Im at the point of having at least one group trying to reach back to me for a chat about how they can help so hopefully that will work out,Im also trying to think kindly after all we are all just doing the best we can LostAngel