Paul5Casual Contributor
Not sure where to turn next.
Our 20yr old daughter has confirmed/medicated anxiety and depression. She also has suspected Bi-Polar. Straight out of school, she had a very short, but extremely abusive relationship (sexual and physical) that appears to have manifested in PTSD & BPD(?).
This relationship introduced her to drugs and this has exacerbated this issue. Though it's only pot, this appears to add to the struggles with her mental health. She wants the best for herself and keeps quitting, but she always seems to return to pot smoking.
We are a solid and loving family unit (also with one other daughter). My wife and I have been trying to manage this for over two years but it's not getting any easier. I've had to repair many holes punched in walls and a smashed bedroom window, and when she has an episode she is practically uncontrollable - to the point where several abulance/police attendances led to to the last occurance where she ended up restrained & 3 days on a psychological ward.
She often self harms and her arms and legs are horribly scarred for life.
The violent outbursts are then followed by her 'rocking', inconsolably, on the floor, before turning to the most heart wrenching pleas for her to be allowed to take her own life, how she'll never get better, or how we'd all be better off without.
We are devastated when she talks like this. To see her crying and pleading to be released from her torment brings us to tears ourselves. I often have to sit with her, for hours, re-assuring her that Mum and Dad love her to bits and that we want to make her better. Telling her we don't want her to go. That we love her to bits and that we'd be destroyed if she went.
She's not getting any better. Her work life (Dental Assistant) is being impacted and she seems to find it harder and harder to function as normal - getting up late, going to bed late, not eating, heavy caffiene intake, arguing with her sister for no real reason, etc...
Her mental health specialist appointments aren't improving things. The multiple medications, while appearing to reduce the impact of her depression and anxiety, seem to be no help with preventing these psychotic episodes, self harm and suicidal breakdowns.
Her sister, witnessing this for the last two years, recently lost a lot of weight, refuses to eat and she has been hospitlised for Anorexia. She also has a milder anxiety and is suffering with non-epileptic seizures.
While my dear wife and I are battling hard to stay strong and fight our hardest for our two beautiful daughters, but we really don't know which way to turn next...
Please. Help.
