My Mosaic

@Bow worth a try, at least just to get some clarity, and highlight your concerns about your ongoing safety. Really hammer home that right now, you need more support, not less. I believe in you hun. One foot in front of the other, one day at a time 💜

@Bow 💗💗

Went and had my bloods done this morning and talked briefly with my SW about the changes to my medication delivery. I told her that I didn’t feel like it best supported where I was at at the moment. She was going to email my CM and I told her that I would most likely bring it up tomorrow with my psychologist.

I think I crashed pretty hard and fast after that. My thoughts spiralling. Can’t get my head out of a particular idea. I did managed to drag myself to arts and craft though, thought it would help, but it really didn’t. It was probably more trigger than anything. Guess that’s kinda to be expected when ya get a group of folks together with chronic mh issues. Found myself sitting there spinning my rock and rocking myself back and forth. My SW popped in and noticed I didn’t look ok and pulled me aside for a chat. I was mostly honest with her. Told her I’m done. Not confident in getting through the coming weeks. She seemed to have some understanding of what I was referring to, so some info has been passed on which is fine. Hoping some prn helps this arvo but doesn’t feel like it 😩

@Bow I'm glad you got to chat to your supports about this hun, and it sounds like they're listening and acknowledging as well. I'm sorry to hear your craft group turned out to be challenging rather than therapeutic.

Do you have much else on this arvo?

Hopefully someone who makes these decisions at comm mh gets the message and they listen @Jynx I haven’t heard anything from my CM….

not much on this arvo. Was suppose to come home and do something with my D, but she’s happy doing her own thing. I’m sitting at the kitchen table in front of the AC. It’s hot here today. I took double the prn and want it to numb me

@Bow Is that something that your pdoc/gp has said is okay? Doubling meds does concern me, and it sounds like things are pretty heavy if you're trying to numb.

Hope the heat abates soon and you can get some reprieve.

Not necessarily @Jynx but things ain’t ok

Aww hun. Sending some biiiiig hugs. What things can you to do look after yourself this afternoon? Maybe jump into the garden or go for a little walk or something?

@Bow

It’s too hot to go outside @Jynx just waiting for dinner to cook, then I’ll make myself comfy on the couch for a bit and then bed. I flicked my AC on in my room for the first time this summer to test it out… gonna need it over the coming week.

I see my psych in the morning and I’m not sure what I feel needs to be prioritised

Ach, summer feels hey @Bow. I'm not a fan of the heat!

Hmm maybe make a list of the things you could bring to the appt, and see if there's anything that stands out as feeling the most in need of attention? You could even share said list in the appt and see what your psych thinks?