My Mosaic

@Bow hoping today is going well for you 💌

Struggling a bit today @Snowie in pain, own fault. But it sucks.

I did speak with my CM and she said to go ahead and book tassie. So that’s good. I chatted with my support worker this morning about it too… she has encouraged me to really put in the effort to make sure I am well and not at risk between now and when I go. That’s hard.

Well tassie is all booked. I’m really anxious about it now.

I'm sorry you are struggling and in pain @Bow

It is hard when things are like that. I understand what it is like being in that pain. It is hard to navigate through. Here with you hon.

Really happy to hear that you have booked Tassie and that your team are behind you. Yes it is a bit scary but something to work towards and look forward too. I'm sure D will be excited by the trip.

Have you told her yet?

Yeah daughter knows @Snowie she is excited. Yeah something to look forward to I guess.

my anxiety to so bad tonight.

It is something to look forward too @Bow I'm sure D will love it.

Sorry to hear about your anxiety tonight. I know that it makes me really tense and on guard.

Have you got anything to do tonight. Maybe some art or lego?

Last night was a really rough night. Lotsa flashbacks, terrible anxiety.

I managed to get myself to my gp surgery to meet with my support worker to get my bloods done. We asked to see the nurse, she was really nice. Better than the one that I’ve been seeing the last couple of weeks. She was heaps compassionate. Understanding. And she showed me her scars. Right there is how much lived experience can make a huge difference. I feel so much shame and judgement when I see the nurse usually… but not today.
My gp was away though. I had to see someone else. A man. But he was really quick and didn’t ask any questions.

Having a really rough afternoon 😭😩

Hey @Bow I'm sorry to hear it. Anything you wanna get off your chest? Here to listen 💜

I went to my arts and craft group this arvo @Jynx we were just colouring in today. But sat there having a lot of really intense memories and flashbacks and I felt froze. I couldn’t escape, I didn’t wanna make a scene and get up and leave. I could hear my support worker in the other end of the office but didn’t feel like I could interrupt her cause she had already dealt with me this morning.