My Mosaic

@Bow totally understandable that you've got such heavy feelings tonight hun. I hope dinner was okay, I imagine everyone is doing it really tough tonight.

Do you have appts coming up in which you can talk about how this is impacting you? Griefline is also a very good option - for you, and also for anyone else in your family who is struggling.

Dinner was ok @Jynx We had Indian. My step dad’s favourite. I wasn’t much hungry though.

I have a pdoc appointment tomorrow but I’m not sure it’s something I really wanna talk with her about. My next psychologist appointment is next Wednesday. The comm mh folks that came tonight to drop my meds off asked how my day was, so I told them. At least I won’t have to tell my pdoc tomorrow. But really anxious that it will be something that she will want to talk about and I don’t want to. Not with her.
My best friend flys out of the country tomorrow- terrible timing. But she came around for a while this afternoon.

think sometimes I just wanna talk about what happened today. Talk through it. Have someone hold that space.

Aww that's so nice @Bow to have his fav meal all together.

Hmm well if your pdoc does inquire, I think you're within your rights to establish a firm boundary about not wanting to talk about it. Everyone grieves differently, and for some they might need to talk about it with all o their supports, for others they need time n space to process first, or might have other ways to working through the emotions.

I'm glad your bestie was able to come around for a while this arvo. How long till she's back from overseas? Maybe you two can make some plans for when she returns, so you have something to look forward to.

Have you ever spoken to Griefline before? I know phone calls aren't your fav, but it could be really helpful. They also have forums you could join too. You definitely deserve to have that space, and I hope you find it soon, wherever it might be.

I'm off for tonight hun but I'll see you real soon. Sending one last pile of hugs, and they're bigguns 💜🤗💖

I’m so sorry for your loss @Bow

Sending hugs, prayers and comfort at this time.

You will have a lot to do over the next few days but please take care of yourself and call out if you need company.

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Thank you dear @Eve7 today was busy, lots of phone calls to be made. We had some many services and organisation involved in the end, helping with the care of my step dad. Hospital equipment that needs to be returned. I felt in ways that it was a bit…. Insensitive that once mum notified one services, others called to arrange pick up of equipment so quickly. Had to clean out his room so they can get in and pull the hospital bed apart when they come tomorrow to pick it up. It all feels so rushed. But I guess it is what mum wants. She doesn’t want the reminders there.

he didn’t have family here… well he has a daughter but they haven’t spoken in many many years. He has no friends. So he didn’t want much spent on farewells. Eh h is sad but I respect his wishes

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so much to process still

There is a lot to process @Bow and that will be hard having strangers come into collect things so soon.

Its sad he didn’t have his family by his side but I’m sure he was comforted having you, d and your mum by his side.

Having so much to do will help you get through the coming days.

Very sorry for the loss of your stepdad @Bow 😞

We are here if you need us ❤️

How is your mum coping?

And you are still going through withdrawals 😞

Thinking of you with your pdoc appt today... Sending hugs 💜

Good morning @Bow.

I hope you are doing as well as can be expected. The next few days are going to be so hard for you. I will be thinking of you.

I hope you appt goes well today.

How is your mum and D?

It’s ok to cry and let it all out.

Sending you lots of strength to get through this very hard time.

Im here anytime you need whether to listen or sit with you.

Thanks @Captain24 @NatureLover @Eve7 @Snowie @Jynx

im ok. I cried a bit last night. Mum said she cried herself to sleep. D seems ok. Is fluffing about this morning doing stuff. I said she could stay home although she probably would have gladly went. I think even just for the distraction she will bring for my mum and I today. I need to call and speak with her teacher today though.

step dads oxygen tanks and hospital bed go today. Mum has just been sleeping on a mattress on the floor in their room for months. She wants to purchase a new bed- I can understand that.

my pdoc appointment this morning. I’m super anxious. My support worker will meet me there. I should get myself in the shower.

I’ll be with you today @Bow keeping you safe.

❤️🙏❤️