My Mosaic

Haha matching oodies! Cute @Jynx !

Hmm my comfort shows. I don’t know if there are any specific ones. I’ve watched designated survivor a few times. I’ve recently finished watching Gilmore girls. And I love me some survivor.

I don’t see the point in going to my pdoc appointment cause they will of already made decisions about me and my body, she made it very clear it’s not my body, so why bother going. They can just deliver their plans for my body when they deliver my pill.

@Bow Survivor huh? Wild! I've never really gotten into reality shows, but I imagine that one has quite a bit of wild and whacky antics in it hey?

That's so rough hun. Have you ever spoken to your pdoc about how it feels for you and how triggering it is?

I like some reality shows @Jynx survivor, amazing race, I recently watched hunted. And the traitor is on tonight. I love selling sunsets. The kardashians. Me and a friend applied to go on the amazing race many years ago. Sent our application video on and a couple of weeks later I read in a magazine all the dos and donts for your application… we obviously did all the donts! Lol

to have control taken away from me?? I argued with her for ages on Friday about it being my body. She said nope. It doesn’t belong to me. Belongs to everyone else. Family, doctors, services. Think we gave up and she moved on.
I walked out so angry. Furious. I swore a bit and then disappeared for a rather long time. I eventually went home after dark and mum was on the phone to police 😩

just don’t see the point @Jynx they have all the control.

@Bow Oh lordy hahaha I hope it is now a fond source of hearty laughs! Would you ever go on Survivor? I don't think I could!

Oh wow she actually said that? Yeesh. I believe that our bodies are something we should always have sovereignty over. Is there an option to get a new pdoc? I think you have every right to be angry about that.

@Jynx

id love to do survivor purely for the challenges…. Except for the eating weird and gross things. The lack of food would be great too. But my back wouldn’t survive the sleeping on the ground.

yep she said that. But she did say it ..,, and the conversation was in response to me saying that it is my body, I should be allowed to do what I want to do with it. ie. what I did last weekend.
And no, that’s something else that I don’t have control over. Just like my CM and psychologist.

@Bow I've heard sleeping on the ground can be good for your back sometimes... but don't quote me on it haha. They need like...a Survivor-lite, where you still get a bed and a tent but you can also do all the challenges. Heck, I'm sure there's a whacky boot-camp or something out there where you could do things like that!

That's super rough hun. I hope that you can find ways to reclaim control - without putting yourself in danger of course. Maybe doing something weird like in Survivor could be a way to feel that sense of control, get the blood pumping, but still be able to come home and hug your family at the end of the day.

I’d go play if there ever was @Jynx id love to do a tough mudder. I loved cross country at high school cause we went through the bush and mud pits.

I guess that’s why I exercise yeah. And my food issues. Something I can kinda control. Although I know that its outta control I still like to think it’s something that I have a little bit of control over.

gonna head to bed @Jynx thanks for keeping me company tonight

@Bow well perhaps joining a lil boot camp is something to think about!

No worries hun, sleep tight 💜

Thinking of you and your GP appt this morning. @Bow

Wishing your gp appt. went well hon and you got some sleep last night @Bow

Sitting in this space with you 💌💌