My Mosaic

It felt pretty shit and am now wondering whether I’m not gonna be allowed to go out on my own @Jynx what else can they take away from me…. Restrictions they put on me.

I’m so sorry this is happening to you @Bow. It sounds pretty tough. I guess they are doing it for your safety but it must feel like you have lost control.

I’m really unable to offer much. I just want you to know that I am thinking of you.

I do feel like I have lost control of everything @Captain24 i am scared to go out, cause I am afraid that I am going to be judged, scorned and reprimanded. How am I suppose to go to appointments? I’m due to see my psychologist on Wednesday, I actually don’t really wanna go. I don’t want to be in that building. I am too scared to be there.
I am suppose to take my daughter to a birthday party this afternoon, even that I am feeling anxious about and that I am not suppose to go.
I feel incredibly low and isolated today.

I feel for you @Bow. It must be so hard to know whether you can face the world outside of home without judgement.

It’s so understandable that you feel low and isolated.

I feel as though you really need your psych appt this week. If you can’t face that building are you able to do it by phone?

I hope you got to take D to the party and that she enjoyed it and it allowed you to forget for a little while.

I hate doing psych appointments via the phone @Captain24 maybe she will meet me in the park over the road. I don’t know. I don’t know if I can trust her though to be honest. She’s all part of them and I just don’t know anymore.
Feel like my whole world is falling apart at the moment.

I took daughter to the party. I had the option of staying or going and coming back. I went and sat in the car for 2hrs and had a massive panic attack.

I missed comm mh dropping my meds off tonight. Only just though. But I’m kinda glad I did. Didn’t wanna talk with random strangers. Was bad enough that they called a little while ago to check in with me.

They all have their team meeting tomorrow. I am terrified of what decisions are going to be made about me that I have no control over.

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Hey @Bow

I hope you are okay. I'm thinking of you!

I know it must be hard having all your control taken from you but I believe in you and you'll be able to get through this.

I hope your psych appointment goes okay later in the week.

Thanks for caring @Birdofparadise8

Im not really ok.

I'm sorry @Bow

I'm here for a chat if you like.

What is happening @Bow?