My Mosaic

@Bow yeah that does suck. I do understand why some therapists might not allow email - too easily abused by some people. But for others, that lack of written communication makes it much harder.

Hmm... could you write it all out as if you wanted to send it as an email, then read through that when you call?

Oh yep, I get it too @Jynx my CM gave me strict rules around texting too.
As you know, written communication is so important to me. It makes things so much easier.

I honest don’t know what to say though. I don’t even know they if they can provide me with what I need. Can anyone???? I feel so incredibly broken and beyond any help that they can provide. I feel like cause I don’t ‘present’ as acute, they pass me off. I mask up too much. Why do I even do that??? Why do I need to protect myself like that??? I wish I could put them

inside my head for a day so that they could see and understand me better. Apart from locking me what else can they do??

@Bow Mm perhaps something you can bring up with any services you want to access in the future - you find written communication really beneficial and would prefer it in a lot of cases.

This is 'the gap' that we talk about so often in the MH sector. Too unwell to function, not unwell enough to be in inpatient care. And I think a lot of our members here have fallen through it; some more than once. And I think that we often mask because if we don't, it means we are vulnerable - and for folks with trauma histories, being vulnerable often means feeling unsafe. So then our protective part tries to shut it down. Especially if we might end up having our agency taken away.

Hmm... I don't have an answer for you, but I do have a suggestion - perhaps you could take some time to write out some of the things you have found helpful, either from your GS sessions, past chats, or from your other MH supports. Having a consolidated record of the things that actually move you towards wellness could be good to provide to any and all of your supports, present and future.

I got no idea how to use that quote feature from my phone but you hit the nail

exactly on the head @Jynx your second paragraph there is exactly how I feel. Ima take a screenshot of that if that’s ok.

I told my new psych that I find written communication so much easier and that often I really struggle to verbalise stuff. Told her that I had a thing with my old psych that if I bought my journal in then that was the sign that I had written something that I needed her to read. She liked that. And also said that she would bring pen and paper into sessions incase there was other things I needed to write down.

I like your suggestion, and the idea behind it, but I’ll be honest….. I don’t think the list would be very long at all. I don’t remember things.

Screenshot away @Bow. I like those ideas too - there's no one 'correct' way to do therapy. If it works better for you, write down as much as you can! And if the CM won't take the time to read it, I guess find a CM who will lol.

It's okay if the list is small at first. If you at least start one, then you can start adding to it over time as well.

I can list a couple things to help you get started:

- Find written communication helpful (hehe I'm being cheeky with that one)

- Find parts-work good to help me conceptualise things

- Find it helpful to feel I have agency over my choices

- Find it helpful to look deeper into things rather than only focusing on symptoms

- It helps to sometimes have 'problem-free talk' where I can focus on the good in my life

I hope those are accurate, and okay to list here 💜

Thanks @Jynx thanks for those. They are a start. And thanks for chatting with me and keeping me company and distracted tonight.
I see my psychiatrist supposedly on Friday and my CM is suppose to be there too. I’m going to write down a few things that we have discussed tonight and take it along.
I’m going to try and sleep now.

Please take care @Bow .

We really do care about you. Hope to chat tomorrow.

Good morning @Bow

Wishing you a good day hon.

Have you got much on?

Sending lots of love 💌💌

Hi @Snowie

not much on today. A day at home actually. First and only for the week. Done some washing and just finished on the treadmill. Now sitting outside in the sun for a bit. Listening to my cat who is desperate to get outside. Going from the window to the door meowing.
not sure what else to do now.

how are you? And what do you have on for today?

A day at home sounds peaceful @Bow, especially sitting outside enjoying the sun. Sometimes taking time for ourselves is needed.

Have already gone food shopping and done 2 loads of washing. Now finally sitting down for a cuppa. Trying to just enjoy the small things. It is sunny here to but was cold and frosty when I took the kids to school. Car said it was 1 degree outside!! I'm ok, but tired. Sleep once again is playing havoc.

How are you feeling today?