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I hear that would have hurt so much @Bow . At the same time you and I know why they are doing it.

It's happened to me. CATT came and took EVERYTHING. I was distraught, but looking back, I wouldn't be here otherwise.

To this day, I still don't have access to my meds. My Dr liaises with the pharmacy and I get it delivered as part of staged dispensing. I've learnt to accept it now. But yes, it hurt me a lot. I felt like control and trust was taken away from me.

Sorry that happened @Bow but I can understand that your safety is really important too.

Mine are dispensed through the chemist too @tyme Then when I get them H locks them in the safe. I only ever get my meds for the day and a few prn. It is taken out of my hands, but that is probably a good thing for me too.

It really did hurt @tyme @Snowie it hurt and I felt so stupid too. Yeah I understand why they do it. But she was so blunt about it.
ive accepted that they are doing it this way…. Delivered twice a week. But I could take them and hand them to mum at least. But no.

it’s ruined my evening

I'm sorry its ruined your evening hon @Bow

Is there something nice you can do for yourself to try and take your mind of it?

I am writing in my journal at the moment. It helps me get things out of my head.

I’m just finishing up the cleaning up from dinner @Snowie my brother, SIL and niece came for dinner. I cooked nachos. It was nice to have them over. But I feel sick now.

my gp came and did a home visit to my step dad tonight- we see the same gp. It was weird seeing her. My pathology lady came too!

told my D she could sleep in my bed tonight. She was excited.

I hope journaling helps you @Snowie i wish it was a habit that I could keep. I did it every day when I was in hospital for ECT.

Nachos are yummy hon @Bow We had chicken and rice.

I'm sure D is super excited. Am thinking about sleeping on the couch tonight. H is sick and I don't want to catch anything from him.

Journaling does seem to help me. Especially with my psych away, it feels like the only way I can get things out of my head. If you did it in hospital, perhaps it is something you could start doing again.

Oh I’d be sleeping on the couch too @Snowie no one’s got time to be sick these days!

my D is already in my bed. She’s warming it up for me! I’m on the couch. My chest is bad tonight. Pains.

I had every intention of continuing with the journaling when I got home. Is it 21 days to form a habit or is it longer? I thought nearly 7 weeks in hospital would surely be enough to get me started, but I think I did it for a couple of nights and then quit. It was easy in hospital. I went and did it straight after dinner. After dinner at home is chaos. Gotta clean up, feed the cats, get D sorted for bed. It just didn’t happen. I just journal… or write when I need to. I told my new psychologist that writing is easy for me and that sometimes I struggle to say with words what I need to tell people, so I write. I told her that with my old psych, if I came

in with my journal it was her sign that I had something to share with her. My new psych liked that and also said that she would bring pens and paper to session too in case I needed to write anything else.

I think your new psych bringing pens and paper to an appointment is a great idea @Bow I might even suggest that to my psych. I have let my psych read my journal a few times. I too find it hard to say the words, but writing them down for me is so much easier.

I'm not sure if it takes 21 days to make a habit. I think it is more if you want to make it a habit or not.

Usually when I see my psych fortnightly I don't write in it as much, but it has helped me a lot in the last 2 months.

Maybe just give it a go and see how you go from there.

Will say goodnight hon. H has gone to bed so will curl up on the couch. I hope you get some sleep tonight and D doesn't wriggle around too much!!

Take care, will talk tomorrow 💜💜

@Bow 💜

@Snowie 💙

@tyme ❤️