My Mosaic

Hey @Bow I'm in and out tonight, but can deffo have some sporadic chats. How you going this evening?

Fairly tired @Jynx fragile, on edge and super hypervigilant. I’m safe but all sorts going on inside.
do you mind if I flick you an email?

Go for it @Bow 💜

Good afternoon @Bow

Hoping things are a little brighter for you.

Sending love 💜💜

hey @Snowie how are you doing today? I seen that last night was rough... hope today has been a little bit kinder to you.

I have an appointment with my dietitian shortly.

I bit the bullet the called my case manager this morning. She was suppose to call me yesterday- my psychologist said she would get her to call. And she would of also seen that i had a trip to hospital. So i was hoping... expecting her to call me yesterday and she didnt. Maybe she would of called today? But i had to speak to her either way to change my pdoc appointment on monday. I tried to call up and change it but i couldnt, they said it needed to be changed by my CM. It was really awkward speaking to her. I hadnt spoken to her for 2 weeks. Im still heaps disappointed with her... the service. But im stuck with them, so need to somehow move on from it all. I couldnt get another time to see pdoc on monday, so have to wait til friday. But i will go in and see my CM on monday morning.

Ive been painting this afternoon. trying to get this piece finished.

@Bow I'm glad to hear that you are being so proactive and getting things sorted out. Sometimes we have to take it into our own hands, and you certainly have done that. You should be proud of yourself.

I hope the painting helped. Also hoping your dietitian appt. goes as best as it can go.

I am struggling today. I can't express how much I miss my psych.

Oh @Snowie I’m so sorry you are struggling so much and that you’re missing you psychologist so much too. I really wish there was something that I could do to help. But I am here. I know it’s not the same… and not your preferred way, but could you give SANE a call and just connect with someone? Or even SCBS chat? With SANEs chat not operating, I have used their chat a few times. You don’t necessarily have to be suicidal to reach out to them. They offer mental health counselling too. I jumped on the other night to unload after my hospital trip and they were so helpful.

My dietitian appointment went ok. She was going to organise a case conference, which she tried to do but apparently she can’t initiate it. It has to be either my pdoc or gp. So she is going to reach out to my gp. We talked a bit about my desire to be more flexible with my days and not so rigid with everything being planned around my exercise. But to be honest not really sure how that will go. I’m very much stuck in this restrict/ excessive exercise rut.

I have been using helplines for help @Bow I like the chat more then the phone so have been using SCBS and LL chats. They are helping but it is still strange to talk to a complete stranger.

I hope a case conference can happen for you hon. It would be good if everyone was on the same page. I'm sure it is probably better to be more flexible but can understand how hard it would be for you to change that. It really is an uphill battle. My heart goes out to you 💗

Heya @Bow , How are things today?

Okish @tyme but feeling pretty shit and yuck at the moment. Just had my meds dropped off. Lady rang the bell and mum was heaps busy juggling other things so I went to the door. Lady asked if mum was home and I said yes and I opened the door and put me hand out to take them and she was no sorry. Need your mum.
blahhhhh yuck meh