My Mosaic

Wow @Bow. You have been through a lot. I’m so sorry you have had this terrible battle.

I just want to say you are not a bad person and you don’t deserve to be going through what you have and currently are.

Sending you loads of love and hugs.

Sitting with you through this 💗

Thanks @moderator @Jynx? or @fluffylight ? for putting the TW on it and not removing it

@tyme

It must be hard to write about those things. Thanks for telling us and helping us realise there is hope for us all. I commend you on your courage and bravery in your life.

Take care 💗💗

@Bow You deserve to have a space to share this 💛

Thank you for your brave hearted narration.

I don't know why we survive things that go on in our life, why we come out of it, get through it.. sometimes I think it's because we deserve to move towards something bigger and better in our lives.

You are worth living, all the horrible bad things to me feels like a reflection of all the better things that can be 💛

I hope this reaches you. I hope you go gentle on yourself.

I am sending you all the gentle and fluffylight to get through this,

fluffylight xx

@fluffylight I just wish that I didn’t have to go through all these horribly devastating things to get to the ‘bigger and better things’ and all the ‘better things that can be’. I look at so many other people who have it so easy and they don’t have to go through such dark times to get their bigger and better things and better things that can be. It’s not fair. None of it is.

You are so right, this is so valid @Bow

I wish this too.. but I want to remind you that you are not a bad person because of this 💛

I have definitely felt this way. I used to compare myself a lot to other people that had it "bigger and better..", I couldn't go gentle with myself and would be in such a dark place thinking how unfair it really all is.. something that helps me get through this is reminding myself that comparison is the thief of joy.

It took my joy away for far too long. I have my lock screen as Own lane. Own race. Own pace. Because I need to be reminded that I am worthy of getting to those better places in my own way. This is what it looks like for me and want to hold space for what it may look like for you 💛

I hope this is okay to receive and acknowledge that it is not easy.

fluffylight x

If only it was that easy @fluffylight ….To remember that … comparison is the thief of joy… and I think also cause my eating disorder ties so strongly into a lot of comparison too. There ain’t much joy here at all anyways.

have let myself spiral tonight. Not ok.

Hey @Bow am very sad to hear you're in a spiral. Are you safe at the moment?

Hope your daughter is there with some cuddles for you on this very cold evening 💜

Will flick you an email @Bow