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My Mosaic

My Mosaic

My Mosaic

I like mosaic art, I’ve never actually done any, but it intrigued me. Made up of hundreds of tiny pieces of stone, glass and ceramic. If you look at it close up it doesn’t really look like anything special, if anything it looks like a mess. But if you take a step back and view the whole picture- it’s a master piece. I guess it’s kind of like life. So many tiny parts, some messy if we look just at the one part. Some day i guess I’d hope that the mess of my life will at some point look half decent.

So here is part of my mosaic, bits and pieces kept tidy together 🙂

tagging you @Emelia8 cause you asked 🙂

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yeah I shallow breath a lot @Captain24 I find that I am nearly always… hmm switched on? On alert? Something is always moving… jiggling.
but no pain in my jaw or back.

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I think that is something you really need to discuss with your GP tomorrow and your Pdoc when you see them @Bow.

If you are further concerned you can go to ED to get it checked. You will pretty much go in straight away as they take chest pain seriously. They will give you an ECG and possibly a blood test.

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I had an ECG and bloods done today @Captain24 don’t feel like spending the night in the ED. Will just wait and see what my gp says tomorrow. have had my meds and gonna crawl into bed.

thanks for tonight @Captain24 know things are hard for you 💕

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I hope you slept well @Bow and I hope you feel a little better this morning

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Well done for going, and for mentioning your chest pains to the GP yesterday, @Bow ... Will you let us know the results of the blood tests and the ECG? I mean, just whether you are OK or not?


@Bow wrote:

The lady understood, didn’t even have to ask, she offered to cover my weight.


That's so good 👍


@Bow wrote:

...contemplating ending it. How selfish it would be. Cruel. But why do I keep fighting this battle that seems not to end?


I so wish you could have relief from your SI 😞

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@Captain24 wrote:

Im struggling a lot. Things are pretty dark my end. I don’t see a reason for my life.


So sorry to hear, @Captain24 😞

Wishing for relief for you...

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I actually did sleep well last night @Captain24 I remember waking up and looking at the clock and it being 4something and thinking it’s the first time I’d woken up for the night. Rolled over and went back to sleep thankfully.

Just got off the phone with my gp. All my bloods and ECG was fine, except for my liver function, but that’s been elevated for ages. @NatureLover @Captain24

I hadn’t really had any pains today, but now I do… so most likely anxiety related. Told my gp that it was worse last night and she asked if I had taken an painkillers like she said, I said no. She told me to make sure I do when/if it happens again.

She said that my CM called her back yesterday…. Apparently I was told my psychologist would be back mid July (wrong, I was told early) and that she would then get a list of all her clients and call us as to when she would be seeing us.
Apparently they also have over 200 clients and only 2 psychologist so that’s why it’s only fortnightly. Yes they have 2 psychologist on their team, but there are far more psychologist within the service, I was not originally under this certain teams psychologist, I was seeing a psychologist under the adult team. It’s all bullshit if being under a certain team is the only reason why I can’t have more frequent psychologist appointments.

And my gp asked about the eating disorder clinic inpatient stay also. Apparently I was removed from that waitlist. No idea why. Need to discuss with my ED psychiatrist (she never replied to my text message about booking an appointment) and my regular psychiatrist.
I’m still angry. Pissed off about it all.

but Disney. I did a treasure hunt with my daughter this morning, that gave her clues to spell out Disney on ice. She was so excited when she figured it out.
need to go try and have something to eat and get ourselves organised to go.

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Have a wonderful time with D @Bow

❤️🦋❤️

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I’m glad your health is ok @Bow and your chest pain is anxiety.

It is awesome that you slept well! It makes a huge difference

Im so sorry about all the hassle with Comm health. I hope you can get something sorted to work for you.

I hope you and D are having a fantastic time! I’m sure you are.

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@Bow wrote:

Just got off the phone with my gp. All my bloods and ECG was fine, except for my liver function, but that’s been elevated for ages. @NatureLover @Captain24

So pleased to hear this @Bow 🙂

Hope you had a great time at Disney last night!

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