My Mosaic

Today marks 15yrs since I graduated from a rehab program that quite literally saved my life. I walked in through those doors so very broken, clinging to life and when everything inside me was screaming at me to run the other way, I whispered a faint little yes. I spent 8 months and 4 days there. And walked out a transformed young lady. I wish the program still existed in Australia. Perhaps I would have had the opportunity to go back and do it again. Get better. But instead here I lay, in my hospital bed, ashamed at where I am on this day.

Please don't be ashamed of where you're at @Bow ...You're battling huge things, plus trauma. We can only play the hand we are dealt, which you're doing 💜

So pleased to hear you're able to eat and are enjoying the food in there!

I hope your nightmare meds do have some effect soon...

I agree with @Jynx that writing some suggestions/guidelines for the nurses so they don't trigger your ED sounds good.

I didn’t get my nightmare meds last night. The nurse went to the effort to speak with my pdoc but for what ever reason they were only written up for that one night. But my pdoc should be in today, so I will ensure that he writes it up as a regular med.

I’ve also briefly spoken with the psychologist that I know from community mh and asked if I could steal 5mins of her time today and she said of course.

No need to be ashamed @Bow. You show such a great deal of strength and courage in giving yourself the best possible chance for recovery. It sounds like a rough day.

I hope you can get the psychologist to help you navigate the staff with your ED. You have been doing really well. You should be proud for trying to advocate for yourself.

Im proud of you.

@Bow

Hi Bow. There does seem to be some technical issues with Webchat. I have been told that they are trying to remedy the problem, but unfortunately I don't have a time line for you and the community. Apologies for this.

@Bow, Sorry I thought I responded earlier. Ignore any double up posts.
I have been told that there are issues with Webchat, but at this stage I don't have a time line for you and the community as to when it will be back on line.

Thanks @Snowdragon for responding re:chat

@Bow Sending you some much needed hugs and love hon 💗💗

I hope you are able to talk to the psychologist today, even if it is only for a short time.

Today is feeling really hard. I’m really down on myself for where I am.