My Mosaic

I just had a call from my case manager. She doesn’t usually work today, so it was unexpected. I’ll go in and see her tomorrow.

I asked her if she knew when I would see my new psychologist- my new psychologist is from her team. She doesn’t know. She said she doesn’t even know if she has the vacancy for me and that my old psychologist had a lot of clients and they have to sit down and triage everyone 😩😩😩😭😭😭😭😩😩

She also said that my pdoc that was leaving but who isn’t leaving any more is currently on leave. They don’t know when she will be back. Maybe 4 weeks, maybe longer.

Everything is just falling to pieces around me. The affects from that little reset from last week has quickly worn off and the incredibly overpowering SI have crept back in. I don’t feel like I have anyone now. I can’t talk to my CM. Goodness knows if or when I’ll get another psychologist. I’ve spent the afternoon finishing off my psychologist’s gift, but now I am just angry with her all over again. I don’t see the point anymore. Nothing is ever going to change. So why bother.

@Bow I'm sorry 💗

Hi @Bow,

I'm sorry to read about what you case manager just told you - it would be upsetting not to know what is really going on with your professional team and how things are going to pan out with them. I can understand why you would be feeling upset and frustrated.

I have sent you an email to check in with you - could you please respond when you can.

Warm regards,

FloatingFeather

ohh @Bow , sitting with you my friend xx

Oh @Bow I’m so sorry. I’m thinking of you

It’s all too much

I can’t do this

Hey there @Bow , I'm just checking in on you to see how you're going. I can see you're having a tough night and I wanted to say that I'm here for you if you needed a chat ❤️

Let me know if you're safe for now when you can

Not sure what talking is gonna do. It’s not gonna change anything. I feel incredibly deserted and abandoned, with no guarantee someone will be along to help anytime soon.

just don’t see the point in trying anymore. Lock myself away and just disappears. I am just a waste of time and space to anyone who is left.

been laying in here in bed sh. Made a downright mess of my hand. How stupid and pathetic am I

I’m sitting with you @Bow.

You are not a waste of space or time. You are very much appreciated and cared for on here and D loved you and needs you

So sorry about how hopeless you feel @Bow and your psychologist leaving and your pdoc being away for maybe 4 weeks now 😞

Most of all I'm sorry to hear about your intense SI 😞

Sending wishes 💜...sorry I don't have much to give at the moment.

Good luck seeing your case manager today...