My Mosaic

@Bow So sorry you are suffering grief 😞

How are you feeling today?

Not doing ok today either @NatureLover

sorry

how r u?

I came close to getting things ready today. Buying things. But I stood there remembering how awful it was last time I did it and failed. I can’t even do that right.

My psychologist called to check in with me today. I fessed up to her what I nearly did. She appreciated my honesty and agreed that it was awful for everyone.

can’t stop thinking about it though. I’m so tired. Tired of fighting all the time. It’s never ending.

I'm sorry to hear this my dear @Bow . I hear it is hard. I honestly do. But please hang in there. It WILL be worth it.

Dear @Bow , well done for not going through with it ❤️

I'm just so sorry you're not OK 😞

I hope you wake up this morning feeling a bit stronger and brighter... Sending wishes and 💜

When it rains it just buckets down… 😩

Falling in a heap tonight not sure how to handle things anymore.

my brother had surgery today. The same brother that had bowel cancer last year and spent some time recovering up here with us. He had a huge mass removed from his stomach today, which went into his bowel again. And there are also spots on his liver.

my step dad had his hospital bed delivered and set up today. That is confronting.

I called community mh this afternoon to speak with my case manager cause I don’t know how to keep going. But she wasn’t at her desk. The receptionist said she would email her and let her know I called and to give me a call back. I texted her a couple of hours later and still nothing.

feeling very scared and alone. Overwhelmed.

Sitting with you @Bow .

I read this is a tough time for you with so much happening all at once.

I hear you feel you cannot continue, yet what are the things that do help you continue and press on? Family? Pets?

@tyme It would be selfish wouldn’t it?