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My Mosaic

BowSenior Contributor18 Nov 2020, 7:26 pm AEDT

My Mosaic

My Mosaic

I like mosaic art, I’ve never actually done any, but it intrigued me. Made up of hundreds of tiny pieces of stone, glass and ceramic. If you look at it close up it doesn’t really look like anything special, if anything it looks like a mess. But if you take a step back and view the whole picture- it’s a master piece. I guess it’s kind of like life. So many tiny parts, some messy if we look just at the one part. Some day i guess I’d hope that the mess of my life will at some point look half decent.

So here is part of my mosaic, bits and pieces kept tidy together 🙂

tagging you @Emelia8 cause you asked 🙂

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tymeModerator27 Feb 2023, 8:57 pm AEDT

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So @Bow ,

I'm hearing you.

What are things you CAN do tonight as opposed to what you CAN'T do tonight.

One thing I know for sure is work never stops. For me, by the time I finished mowing one side of the lawn, the other side was growing already... in other words, you can do only what you can do and no more.

The more we look, the more we will find things to do.

I'd encourage you to look at ONE thing at a time. Can you then reward yourself with exercise after completing a task?

I used to have to 'reward' myself - not with exercise though... with other things such as going downstairs and going outside once I finished a task (or part of a task).

But for tonight, maybe it's just about winding down?

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BowSenior Contributor28 Feb 2023, 4:42 pm AEDT

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I’ve not been able to do anything that my psychologist and I planned for me to do today. It’s all just been too hard. Have just ignored it and wished it to go away, which is the last thing we agreed I should do today.
I’ve had horrible things screaming in my head instead. Pathetic and useless.

wishing for my life to be done

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Captain24Senior Contributor28 Feb 2023, 5:06 pm AEDT

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You are not pathetic and useless @Bow. It’s those depression voices talking. We have to learn not to listen to them.

As for today, it’s almost over. Do you think you can move on from today and try again? Start fresh tomorrow and try again? It’s a new day.

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JynxModerator28 Feb 2023, 5:19 pm AEDT

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@Bow aww that is really rough place to be. I know you say you have been ignoring the things you and your psych wanted you to do - but the day is not over. You could choose one of the things and just do it for like... five min? Very small commitment!

Just trying to be a lil encouraging. Also sitting with you in this dark hour 💜

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amber22Senior Contributor28 Feb 2023, 5:29 pm AEDT

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Hey there @Bow I am sorry to hear that you're having a challenging time right now, I am sitting with you and sending you lots of hugs. Here to chat if you needed a hand to hold 💛

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BowSenior Contributor28 Feb 2023, 5:31 pm AEDT

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So much rage inside

none of it is worth it anymore

im so sorry

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JynxModerator28 Feb 2023, 5:37 pm AEDT

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Will send you an email @Bow 💜

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BowSenior Contributor28 Feb 2023, 7:10 pm AEDT

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How do you grieve something you’ve never had????

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amber22Senior Contributor28 Feb 2023, 7:13 pm AEDT

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Sitting with you @Bow , did you want to chat about anything?

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BowSenior Contributor28 Feb 2023, 7:24 pm AEDT

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I don’t know @amber22 im not sure there are any more words.
im real confused

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