My Mosaic

That is fair @Bow. Sometimes it's good to focus real small. First, check in with yourself - are there any basic needs that you could attend to? A glass of water, a snack, a cup of tea, a shower, some deep breaths, or some rest? Then maybe have a think... if your mind is racing, you could distract yourself by going for a walk or doing something physical. If your mood is quite low, you could try something like watching a nice kids movie (watched 'Strange World' on Disney plus recently and it's really good! Would recommend 😊) or even get messy with some painting - doesn't have to be anything, just splash some colours around. If you're feeling quite overwhelmed, you could call someone or journal your thoughts, try to get it off your chest.

All just thoughts of things to try. Here with you every step of the way as needed 💜

Laid on my spikey mat and now doing some painting with a tv show on in the background @Jynx

Aww lovely @Bow I hope you're really taking the time to get into the painting process! Makes me feel like I should grab some of my art stuff out once I finish this arvo, so thanks for the inspiration 💜

What arty stuff do you do @Jynx ?

Oh I’ve gone too far this time just needed to feel something just needed to make everything slow down I’m such a terrible person such a failure can’t even go a day without doing this

Sitting with you @Bow .You are not a 'failure' . You are a 'warrior'

You're not a terrible person or a failure, you're battling some massive stuff that anyone would struggle with @Bow 😞

Are you OK, do you need to go to the GP to get fixed up?

Sending lots of 💜

I think I’m ok thanks @NatureLover

I see my psychologist this morning. Rather anxious about the appointment.

@Bow I hope your appointment went ok hon and you were able to discuss a few things with them. Sending lots of love to you 💗💗

I seen my psychologist this morning. I had been expecting her to ask where my head was at in regards to exposure therapy and ceasing it/recommencing it again. But she didn’t ask and I didn’t blurt out hey I wanna pick it up again. Sigh. So it wasn’t discussed.

We talked about home life and how everyone is coping. And I told her despite ceasing exposure therapy I am still having a lot of intense flashbacks. None of that has changed unfortunately, like she thought it might of. So we did some guided imagery. Anyone familiar with it??? We put together a different ending/ narrative to what actually happened to me. We recorded her telling it and I am to listen to it, especially when I have a flash back and see if it helps.

im not sure how I feel about this guided imagery. I struggled to do it in session, struggled not to wander and jump ahead to what actually happened. It feels really unnatural. But I will give it a go.

I shared my journaling and an art piece that I started months ago and was able to put words to it over the weekend. My psychologist really loved it, she got a bit emotional and asked my permission to share it with one of her colleagues that also does a lot of schema therapy.