My Mosaic

I don’t know what to say other than I’m thinking of you @Bow

Thanks @NatureLover im not sure how I feel about being here. I know that I appreciate and love the support and friendship here, but I just get into too much trouble. Have posts removed. That’s why I wonder if this is the right place for me. And yes some posts trigger me, it’s just the nature of the forums, none of yours though.

I don’t know what the answer is. Think I’m just in too bad a place at the moment, especially with doing this exposure therapy and everything being so intense. I think I actually just need to stay away from my own thread, that way I won’t share stuff and get into trouble. Just support others. But I’m not really in the place to do that either, I really don’t have much to give at the moment.

sorry just rambling now.

Sending lots of loving support @Bow

I get triggered a lot on the forums and I used to get posts removed a lot but I tend to journal my dark thoughts now.

We’re in this together my dear friend so hold on tight.

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@Bow, sorry to hear you get triggered. I’ve been triggered too, it’s hard. Now I have to assess where I am psychological to determine which threads are safe to read.

I’ve had posts removed too, sometimes I say too much in the heat of the moment. I even posted something yesterday but immediately removed it because I didn’t want to trigger anyone. I know you are good at writing, maybe try writing things out. Sometimes I write poems and I keep them to myself. Other people journal. I just find poetry more cathartic.
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@Bow 💗💗

Thanks @Eve7 @Snowie @creative_writer

sometimes I have the need to be heard… especially about the things that have happened to me, I can’t be silenced about it anymore. But this is not the place for that. Need to remember that.

I will try writing it out and taking it to my psychologist

I understand having posts removed is upsetting, I've had it done too @Bow

I'm glad none of my posts have triggered you.

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@Bow wrote:

Think I’m just in too bad a place at the moment, especially with doing this exposure therapy and everything being so intense.

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I understand...thanks for explaining. Exposure therapy is so intense and awful, but so necessary. I know I can't face it regarding the germophobia, so I admire you. I did face it regarding the childhood (actually lifelong) severe emotional abuse from my parents, but that was because I couldn't go on as I was. Facing it resulted in a lot of healing - not full healing but enough to get on with my life. I am hoping that happens for you too 💜

Thanks @NatureLover im hoping that this helps enough for me to also move on with my life, enough so that it’s not so debilitating. But I do also have other traumas….

how are you doing my friend? How’s your cleaning going? Your 1hr extra?

@Bow sending lots of love your way 💗💗