My Mosaic

Im so sorry you feel this way tonight @Bow. Do you have supports for the rest of the week?

Possible my case manager @Captain24 I seen her in passing yesterday, so she is back this week.

I really don’t know how much I can talk to her though. I don’t wanna open a can of worms with her and she not know how to support me.

just feels easier to disassociate at the moment

I messaged my psychologist this arvo. She told me to stay present, use grounding techniques and disassociating is not helpful.

😭😭😭

You can do this @Bow. I hope the grounding techniques can help keep you present. Do you need to stay present for this to work?

Basically yes @Captain24

it’s not helpful to disassociate, need to stay present to do the exposure therapy. But it’s so bloody hard

I hope today is better for you @Bow and that you have been able to stay present.

 Silenced again.

it reinforces guilt, shame and blame.
effectively being quashed and rendering me silent and powerless all over again.
you are essentially criminalising a victims voice- this response causes just as much harm as the original offence.

I have had so much taken away from me already, by taking my voice all over again, by not allowing me to share my story without shame, without blame, you have the possibility of having a serve adverse impact on survivors lives.

I hear you @Bow 💝

And yes, I heard you the first time too. I have been where you are. Trying to make some sense in what happened. Trying to take back some power for one's self, where none existed before. Only to seemingly be shut down and silenced, as you are now. I agree that it feels as though we are the ones being punished, ie the victims victimised. Our already faint and limited voice, silenced once more. 💔 I completely get all of that.

But unfortunately Sane need to be aware that our words and our traumatic experiences may harm or have an adverse affect on other readers. So ... much as it hurts me to say it ... I do understand why some posts need to be sensored. I am also so very aware, from personal experience, just how devastating and hurtful it is for you. To feel that your voice is taken away, to be silenced ... again 😔

Remember its not personal, it's to protect others from the traumas you have experienced. This just isn't the right avenue for us to express some of this stuff. You have your therapist, who you can tell anything to, without restrictions imposed.

I would urge you to speak with her, without any restrictions, when you next see her. It helps to get it out, to tell someone what happened. Its much better than bottling it all up. The fact that you are now finding your voice is a good sign. Go with it and talk all you want with your therapist. I'm only sorry that your attempts to talk here have been thwarted. 💝😔🌷

Em

@Bow haven't any words for you but am here for you 💜

Sending you my thoughts today @Bow

Really need someone to sit with me tonight