My Mosaic

Thank you @NatureLover

I’ll be asking to go home today, for either a discharge today or tomorrow. Fingers crossed they let me!

Hoping that happens for you @Bow 💝 You have been doing so well whilst in hospital.

But can I just ask one thing of you? The important progress you have made when in hospital is massive and hugely admirable. But I fear it could be a temporary thing, aimed purely at getting you out of hospital and back home. I worry so much that once home, you will quickly lapse back into your old habits. Please dont think Im blaming you, because Im not. I know it is not something you can control. But you do have control over what support networks you put in place around you.

So I guess what Im asking is "what are you planning to do this time, to give yourself the best possible chance of not winding up back in hospital again"? I ask because I care about you @Bow and I worry for your wellbeing. I hate seeing you suffering so much. I only want to see you get better.

Emelia 💗

I understand your concern @Emelia8 I guess it’s my concern also. In all honesty, I guess relapse is inevitable, how bad the relapse will be will depend on many factors I think. But I will aim to stay out of hospital.

I am desperate to be out by tomorrow, so that I can be home for my daughters birthday on Wednesday. I will be so disappointed and angry with myself if I’m still here. I will feel like I have failed as a parent.

I have already seen the dietitian this morning. She has adjusted my meal plan, to increase my oral intake with the aim for me to tolerate the increase and go home tomorrow. But I will ask the mh guy and the gastro dr about today still. I’d prefer to go home today.

What can I do to avoid another admission you ask??? I really don’t know. My psychologist is away for the next 2 weeks, which the timing of her leave is terrible, but nothing can be done about that. I will have to stay in close contact with my case manager over the next 2 weeks while she is away. I’m sure the mh guy here will ensure supports are put in place. I also have an appointment with my dietitian scheduled for Friday.
I am suppose to have a zoom appointment with my ED psychiatrist tomorrow morning at 8:30. She may come around today, but I’m not sure. If I am still here tomorrow, perhaps I could still attend the zoom appointment with her.

thank you for your kindness @Emelia8 x

@creative_writer I had hoped that my ED psychiatrist would of come around today but she hasn’t. Maybe she doesn’t do rounds anymore. But I have sent her a text message letting her know that I am in hospital and whether it’s ok for me to still log onto zoom for my appointment with her.

I seen the gastro dr today and she is happy with my progress and as long as the dietitian and mh are ok with me going home tomorrow then they are too. Yet to see mh today

Hi @Bow

I hope you are able to go home for D's birthday hon.

I hope you can go home for D’s birthday @Bow

Thinking of you and sending lots of love ❤️

I didn’t end up seeing mh today, not sure why. I sure hope he comes around tomorrow so that I can go home.

I’ve just been catching up. @Bow It sounds like you are doing well. Do you feel like you are starting to get well?

I so hope for you that you can go home tomorrow

I’m feeling better @Captain24 feeling better for having nutrition in my body. But my heads sure a mess tonight and I feel so sick after eating dinner… it was a big meal considering the little I’ve eaten the last few weeks and my moods really flat tonight too 😩