My Mosaic

I agree @Bow . This is not life. The last thing is to leave behind what means most to you. It's a scary thought.

I've been in that situation. I had to be sick of being sick. I made myself do everything I didn't instinctively want to so that I could get better.

If I wasn't doing it for any one else, I had to do it for me. And yes, I am grateful that I also failed in the past.

You have so much to give and share with others. Now it is able being supported to get through this difficult stage - even if it hurts.

Sitting with you, tyme

Also, @Bow ,

It's good to have these numbers up your sleeve so you know who you can call in crisis:

- Lifeline on 13 11 14

- Beyondblue on 1300 224 636

- Suicide Call Back Service on 1300 659 467

Phoning them is not about fixing things or 'making you better'. It is more that you can get out some of what is inside. Sometimes, these feelings don't have words. But it can be comforting to know someone is listening.

@Bow I'm so sorry you were in that awful place where you made an attempt. 😞 I really feel for you as I've been there too many times to count, all throughout my life.

You are definitely not bad, weak or a failure. My god, what you battle on an hourly basis, every day, is massive.

Am thinking of you lots as you face your psychologist and case manager today. Sending wishes for strength and hope for you...

Much 💜

Think of you today @Bow …

Thanks @Captain24 @NatureLover

such a brutal appointment with my psychologist. Felt like I was in the principals office being told off. She said she had all sorts of emotions when she read about what I did- her eyes were all red.

i don’t really feel like I achieved anything. I’m still just as confused. But she said I need to make a commitment to myself to take suicide off the table. To ride the dark moments. Survive them. I just don’t know how to.

gonna take a step back. I’ll be around just quiet. Be thinking of me, things are still hard.

Sorry that it was brutal @Bow .

My therapist said she couldn’t help me if I wasn’t here. It’s something that has been in my mind since.

I am here thinking of you and will sit with and support you in whatever you need.

I hope you are able to learn to get through the dark moments (not sure I have yet). I’m hoping it starts to ease for you as you deserve it.

Sounds like your appointment with your psychologist was pretty tough @Bow. I would imagine it's a bit to sit with right now.

Thinking of you and sending you hugs.

Warm wishes,

FloatingFeather

Sending lots of love @Bow and here for you always.

💜🙏💜

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@Bow wrote:

such a brutal appointment with my psychologist. Felt like I was in the principals office being told off. She said she had all sorts of emotions when she read about what I did- her eyes were all red.

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Sorry to hear, @Bow . But she obviously cares about you a lot.

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@Bow wrote:

But she said I need to make a commitment to myself to take suicide off the table. To ride the dark moments. Survive them. I just don’t know how to.

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Can you ask her for strategies?

Thinking of you and sending wishes... 💜

Hoping today is being kind to you @Bow