My Mosaic

Sending hugs to you both @Bow and @Eve7 ...

💜 💛

Things still feel really hard.

seen my gp this arvo and has bloods done. All follow up from my hospital admission last week. Then I went to see my case manager, but she wasn’t in, so I seen some other male! case manager. He is nice, I’ve spoken to him a few times before but it was really hard speaking with a male with all that is going on inside for me.

We spoke at length about me staying well so that I can go away overseas next month. I have 6 weeks. He said in not so many words that they can stop me from going if I’m not well enough 😩 So really pushing myself to stay well. Take the meds that I am suppose to take. Eat and drink regularly. And don’t say anything stupid that might get me into trouble. I had a good couple of days after I came out of hospital but am now restricting again. It’s so bloody hard.

Im due to see my psychologist tomorrow. She was away last week so really hanging out to see her, but I vaguely remember last time we had all this horrible rain that she cancelled. Really hoping that she is ok to come into work tomorrow cause I really need to see her.

Hey @Bow

I have faith in you, you've got this!

Sorry that I missed where you are going overseas??? Wherever it is, that's super exciting. With your supports and encouragement, and the strength I see in you, I know you can do this and will get to go.

Good luck getting in to see your psychologist.

Sending strong hugs,

Hanami 💮

Thanks @hanami

yes my daughter and I are going to London…. A brief trip to Paris and then to Disneyland in California 🙂

I can’t stop crying tonight sometimes the ache inside is so much.

Hey @Bow ,

Is it just that general sadness you feel, or did something happen? I'm here if you'd like to talk.

Hugs, tyme

Thinking about all the things that have happened to me…. @tyme

So much taken away

so much hurt

I hear you @Bow . I can hear there is a lot of hurt. Is there something pleasant you can do for yourself right now, in this moment?

I heard you are going away soon. Anywhere special?

tyme

I’ve recently crawled into bed @tyme just want today to be over with.

yes we are going overseas, london, paris, Disneyland.

Wow!!! @Bow I'd love to travel with you in your suitcase! How long are you going for? Your daughter must be soooo excited. I know I'd be.

tyme