My Mosaic

@Bow they didn't actually tell you about the meds they discharged you on? 😮

Thinking of you today and sending wishes and hugs... 💜

No they didn’t @NatureLover I don’t think the psych team were across all the meds that the medical team had put me on. Cause so many of my electrolytes were so bad, I was put on a lot of replacements while in hospital. I remember the nurses giving me my lil pill container morning and night and being shocked at how many were in there. I was to come home on all of them too.
My bloods are looking better today… or yesterday when I had them done. My gp called me this morning.

I’ve been keeping myself busy today with some diy jobs around the house. But every time I stop, I find myself thinking about stuff. And if I stop for too long, bam, hit with a flood of negative thoughts and flashbacks. Just catching my breath now, having a cuppa out on the deck watching… listening to the rain.

Im sad. Sad that I have to deal with what I have to this weekend. I’m scared.

Hey @Bow 🎀

It sounds like you had a not-so-nice experience and I am so sorry that you had to go through that.

It is amazing that you have been able to keep yourself busy today, that takes a huge amount of effort when everything is already feeling tough. I want you to know how proud I am of you for that. When we talk about "doing the work" to cope - this is exactly the work you are doing.

I hope you can enjoy a nice moment with a cuppa and the soothing sounds of the rain 🌧

Sitting here with you ☕💝

Thanks @Peregrinefalcon !

I was only a child.
he was not

@Bow here with you 💜

So much inside but can’t use any words

got the shakes tonight @Jynx

No words necessary @Bow. I hear you are struggling. Deeeeeep breaths to start with.

Would distraction help?

i don’t know @Jynx no idea what will help tonight. And don’t know how I’m gonna manage tomorrow 😩

got the tv on but laying here staring blankly at the ceiling. Time disappearing too much tonight

@Bow Sitting with dread is so, so hard. For me it can be like... time is both moving so so slowly, but gets away so quickly, bringing the dread closer. It's hard.

Not sure what I can offer other than a hug and some presence 🤗💜