My Mosaic

I wish it was a holiday @NatureLover

my brother from tassie was diagnosed with cancer last month. He came up to my dad in Victoria a few weeks ago and now he is with us. I went and met them half way yesterday to pick him up. He will be catching the train back! I ain’t doing that drive again anytime soon.

It was a childhood lost, covered with a painted smile

Worn with an effort to cover every test

I wonder did her utter sadness show at all?

In her eyes, or even in her smile?

From behind that wall she hid

Lonely and afraid of the world outside

She goes inward, shutting down and disconnecting

Did anyone reach out and give her any hope?

Sadly, no one gave her a glimpse or really even noticed

Silencing her voice, freezing and numbing

And releasing herself from unimaginable pain

she feels dead, no one cares

A child believes in what she is told from a young age

So its important that from the beginning on that very first page,

That if you imprint negativity and pain

It will continue through life the outcome is sad.

So as I sit today, with these words weeping out

My heart is breaking, my child is screaming out

I just want to be loved, please stop hurting me

Inside I feel afraid, the nightmares and attacks.

Is it too much to ask for someone to hold me?

To look into my eyes and tell me that they like what they see?

That I am important and not a mistake

Is it too much to want an end to this trouble?

My dear @Bow ,

Thank you for sharing your innermost thoughts and feelings.

I'm sitting with you at this time, and want to you to know that you deserve every bit of love you can get.

You are NOT a mistake. You are here for a reason.

Your strengths shine through your love of art and poetry.

Once again, thank you for sharing. It is so brave of you to share your vulnerabilities with us.

Kindest,

tyme

@Bow 👍💝😔👂👀 🙏 🌷🌻♥

@Bow

Lovingly

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Oh wow - your poem is so powerful 😮

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@Bow wrote:

my brother from tassie was diagnosed with cancer last month. He came up to my dad in Victoria a few weeks ago and now he is with us. I went and met them half way yesterday to pick him up. He will be catching the train back! I ain’t doing that drive again anytime soon.

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Oh yes, I remember that your brother had been diagnosed with cancer 😞 It was good of you to drive 700km. I hope it's a very special time with your brother.

@Bow

I’ve had to be really intentional today. Keeping myself busy. I’ve found myself being pulled towards SI and acting on it. I’m safe at the moment.
I am so extremely tired even though I get to bed and asleep early. I know my blood pressure is low… my body is struggling. That will make me tired I guess.
Despite being tired I’ve spent a fair bit of time on the bike. It keeps my body moving which helps with the distress- at least I’m learning something from DBT group.

Hey all @Bow @NatureLover @Emelia8

Dropping by with some love 💙❤️💛❤️💙

Wow @Bow , sending you lots of hugs my friend

Hello and hugs @NatureLover , @Eve7 , @Emelia8 xx

Feeling very tired today , have done a few things xx

@Bow I hope today is easier for you 💜

Thank you so much for the love @Eve7 💛

Hi @Shaz51 ❤️