My Mosaic

Hello @Bow,

I can deeply relate to your struggles. It was also my experience that accessing eating disorder inpatient clinics was incredibly challenging, but not impossible. Have you considered signing up for private health insurance, even just for a short period of time, to offer you the opportunity to increase access to the specific type of support you need?

Thank you

ButterflyBeauty

Hi @Bow

Offering some love to you sweetie 💜💜

Thanks @Snowie how are you doing?

Struggling @Bow

Haven't done much today. Just trying to get through the day.

How are you going hon?

@Former-Member I was actually looking at private health insurance online last night cause I had this conversation with my case manager yesterday. It really is so expensive. And then there is the 2 month wait for mh inpatient.

i was also talking about this with my psychologist today. I told her that I am probably at a place where I need an inpatient stay… not that I want it, but I need it. I am so very desperate for a break. Let someone else take the reigns and make the choices, as hard as that is, my body is just so tired… and my brain is tired too. My psychologist said there is the PECC unit at the hospital which may be more helpful that the psych ward, psych ward is just not an option- would only go there if I was really unsafe. And then she said that there are actually a couple of publicly funded beds at the local private psych ward, but it’s not easy to get one of them. I heard some folks talking about the ‘overflow beds’ at my support group last week and I did wonder if that is what they were talking about.

It would be good if there were some day programs. Even though I don’t really have time for them at the moment, got things on most days of the week at the moment- it’s exhausting. But I know that the Peter Beaumont Unit have day programs in non covid times, they just haven’t started back up again. And not sure if their inpatient has started back up either.

I see my case manager in the morning. Then I have my ladies church group- unsure if I will go. My CM referred me to this new social outings service, they call me every day, including weekends and they have activities on every day. I have ignored her call today… it hasn’t even been a week and I am already ignoring her. I just feel really overwhelmed with everything and everyone. And there are no activities that interest me and fit into my schedule this week. So I feel like I am wasting her time by being on her books. Maybe once my support group finishes up this week, that will free up Thursday for me.

im tired. Exhausted. Sorry I did not intent to write this much.
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Just posted a long post in reply to @Former-Member , @Snowie it kinda says where I’m at. I’m exhausted…, beyond exhausted. Wish there was another word to describe how exhausting all this is. I often just want to cry.

Sounds like you have a lot going on at the moment @Bow I am glad you have support around you, even though it can be daunting at times.

Sometimes a good cry helps let out some of those emotions. Sitting with you hon 💗💗

@Bow

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Sending hugs @Bow ...

Hello @Bow,

Thank you for taking the time to share where you are at with me. I empathise deeply with the feelings of overwhelm and exhaustion and want to acknowledge the bravery and courage you continue to demonstrate. I would also like to validate that living with an eating disorder is incredibly difficult. There is hope. If I can do it, so can you.

I do really hope that your support network / case manager can help connect you with the right service or program for you. It sounds like you are really willing and ready to accept the support that you need. I will be holding you in my thoughts and prayers today.

Thank you

ButterflyBeauty 🙂