My Mosaic

Sitting with you @Bow 💙🦋💙

No @Bow ... I dont know what any of that is like. 😔 But it sounds so hard, and such an isolating thing to live with. I'm so sorry that this is you right now. I want you to know that people do recover from EDs, and so can you. Hang onto hope.

Emelia 💝

Thank you @Emelia8 @Eve7 @NatureLover

Today has been really hard. My d was at her fathers and was having attempt #2 at a sleepover, but she has just come home and is in bed with me. I have literally spent the whole day exercising. Trauma is horrible. Flashbacks are horrible. They have been relentless today. Constant. I want them to stop. And now I have to somehow hold myself together cause my d is next to me. Even though I’ve never wanted, I needed tonight alone… just so I can be.

i missed a call from community mh and just don’t have it in me to return their call.

I am sorry I didn’t see this earlier sweetie @Bow

You are so right. Trauma and all it brings with it is awful, intolerable even. I hear your pain tonight.

I’m on the piano right now playing some comfort music for you.

Lots of love and prayers

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Thanks @Eve7 trying to imagine the beautiful music

I can’t get off to sleep tonight. Everything feels so real and scary. I hate what these images do to my body. Is hard to make them stop when I physically feel the pain all over again. Disassociating a lot tonight. Just want it to stop. Just want it all to be over.

Try and listen to your d breathing @Bow

I was playing some tunes from The Sound of Music but now I’m just playing some chords.

Love you lots 💙🙏🤗

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@Bow wrote:

Do you know what it is like to be so thirsty you can feel the dryness but you can’t bring yourself to drink anything?

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I didn't know that it involved drinking as well, @Bow 😞 Am so sorry to hear 😞

Also sad that the trauma and flashbacks were so bad yesterday...I hope today is a bit better.

Feel so alone as the images I keep seeing today and the pains that keep gripping me. Just wanna disappear. I can’t face another day like this

Hey @Bow
I wish we could take that pain away from you, I can see how awful everything is feeling right now.

Please know how valued you are here 💜

Should you need extra support to get you through today, please contact any of the following:
• Police, Ambulance, Fire - 000
• Lifeline - 13 11 14
• Samaritans - 13 52 47 (8am-8pm AWST)
• Suicide Call-back Service - 1300 659 467

Perhaps even speak with the Help Centre team tomorrow, too, if you are feeling up to it. We hope to hear from you

Kind regards

Peregrinefalcon

Thanks @Peregrinefalcon knocked myself out for a bit and managed some sleep. Today is nearly over