My Mosaic

So my gp called this morning. She called just out of concern? Wanted to touch base and see how I was, wanted to make sure I had a safety plan in place and someone to call if I needed to over the new year break. She was in just fit today and offered for me to come in and see her today, but I said I was ok. And she said she would call on her first day back on the 4th.

still all feels sus. The last I spoke with her she said just to make an appointment in the new year. Still makes me feel like to got some kind of report back. Oh well. It's nice that I have a good caring gp.

gonna go mow the lawns before it's a jungle- all this rain!

Monster is so loud tonight

feel so disgusting

Sitting with you @Bow

Need my brain to stop @Eve7

It's really hard when our brains are going a millon miles a minute @Bow

I just had a camomile tea to settle myself and my night meds.

Can you focus on one thing for a moment?

Hey there @Bow, stopping by to see how you're travelling today...it seems yesterday might have been a difficult one for you. I hope that things are a little easier today?

Not particularly @Former-Member 😩

Oh @Bow, here with you this afternoon 💙

Was there something that was immediately a concern for you, or is it more a struggle generally at the moment?

Struggling with the loud ED voices inside my head @Former-Member ive done ok over the Christmas break... that doesn't even sound right cause 'ok' in who's terms??? My ED doesn't think it's ok..., but I have every intention of diving into a restricting phase. I feel so disgusting. I can feel the weight that I've put on. I hate that there is still so much dang food in this house. Why does Christmas festivities have to be based around so much food?!??
my mum said she wants to lose weight in the new year. That made me very happy. If she's doing it I have every excuse to get away with it too, but to what extent I don't know.

I just feel miserable. Stuck in a disgusting body.