My Mosaic

Still here waiting 😩

don't know what is going on?

Oh that's stressful @Bow , waiting is the worst. Hope you haven't had to wait for tooooo long. Sitting with you.

Sorry to be late seeing your post @Bow I am praying for you and sending lots of love sweetie. Please let us know you are safe when you can xox

Anyone around?

To feel violated all over again when the mental health registrar at the hospital presses me and presses me to disclose what happened.... and a male. I should of just said I sleep fine, but instead I made the mistake of saying I don't sleep well cause I have nightmares. He wanted to know why and wouldn't stop until I told him. 💔

You've done well @Bow ... so brave. Part of healing is being able to speak of our worst traumas. Have you been admitted? Sorry you had such a long wait. Are you feeling a little better now? Hope so, coz you sure deserve to. 💝

No @Emelia8 I came home in the early hours of this morning. I spoke with the very unhelpful mental health registrar, very invalidating of both my ED and my assault. He kept pressing for information that I don't feel he needed to know and made some comments that were really unhelpful towards my ED. He wanted to admit me to the psych ward but I said no, it's really an unhelpful place to be for my ED, which if I got some proper help for it would help alleviate some of my SI.

I was very quickly... and quickly I mean not really at all, assesses by a medical dr, bloods done which were fine and then sent home. I have not eaten in more then a few days and have a lot of unpleasant physical symptoms. I guess in all honesty, I am disappointed in how they respond to EDs?

I desperately need a break from the constant-ness of my ED, having those decisions taken out of my hands so that I can get some proper nourishment into me and some support and then back on track again. But that was not offered to me. Or perhaps just not available. Which leaves me feeling trapped and back at square one with SI.

thanks @Emelia8 @Eve7 @Jynx @Anastasia for your various supports last night. I'm really tired today so may just go crawl back into bed.

@Bow I'm so sorry to hear of all you went through last night. I wish you had been met with validation and all the care you need. I hope you're able to take it easy today, and that you can reach out soon to your supports because it sounds like it was a traumatic experience for you 💙

I am so sorry @Bow I wish I could say something helpful but I am here listening to you and praying for you,

I just made a pig of myself at the work Christmas party and now I’m feeling guilty..gee some people are good cooks.

Anyway here for you hon and always just a tag away.

💙🦋🙏🦋💙

Thanks @Former-Member @Eve7

@Former-Member I have an appointment with my dietitian tomorrow, she is good at what she does, so will be able to talk through some of it with her. My last appointment for the year and until she is back in Feb- such a long time, she's got kids, so I get it.
Then I see my psychologist on Tuesday, again my last for the year and she has 2 weeks off. Guess it's a bad time for everything to fall apart eh?

Thank you @Eve7 , glad that you were able to enjoy yourself at the work Christmas party. It's suppose to be the time of year to enjoy food, fellowship.... I wish I could, instead I'm full of anxiety and fear.