My Mosaic

Anybody awake?

Im awake now @Bow 💝

Are you okay?

Good morning @Bow

I hope today is better for you.

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I had another unpleasant night. Topped of with my little one coming in at 5am.

I’m waiting to get my blood results, skeleton staff so a different Dr again 😞

Good morning @Bow

I hope today goes better for you and you feel better. Take it easy and enjoy making memories with your wonderful daughter.

Take care and stay safe!

Judi9877☺️

why do people, and doctors of all people.... throw around the term 'think positive thoughts'?! if getting myself out of this dark bloody pit was as simple as thinking some positive thoughts id be there. she at least show a little bit of interest in me as a person and not just another number to push through the door. she said to call mh, i wish i could. what do i even say? i wish they would call.

just wanna cry at how quickly my mood shifts. like a flip of the switch.

sometimes i dont even have words for what i am feeling other than completely numb. its like i can not move. want to fall in a heap on the ground and disolve into the dirt. to just disappear. to be no more. thats what i want. god someone help me before its too late

Hi @Bow

I'm so sorry to hear how much you are struggling - it sounds like like you are in a state of despair. This is an awful space to sit in.

If you feel you may need extra support at this time, please feel free to reach out to the following services. I am aware you prefer text-based/chat services.

Take good care of yourself!

Kindest Regards,

Amour_Et_Psyche

Sitting with you @Bow

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@Bow 💝 ... same as @Eve7 ... I'm here and sitting with you.

I really wish you could call your MH team. Perhaps if I were to sit with you and hold your hand ... reassure you a little ... could you do it then? If not, then please give one of those helplines (chat or text) that @Former-Member listed a try. Another alternative could be the Pastor you spoke about as being very helpful before. I am very concerned about you Bow, and pray that you remain safe, and give someone an opportunity to help you. I stress that you DO NOT have to do all this alone. Its just too hard on our own, and realistically it's often unsafe to try to do it all on our own. Please seek help from someone whom you trust and whom you will permit into your tortured inner world.

I really care about you Bow, and only want what's best for you. But you have to do the heavy lifting, because we here cannot do it for you. All we can do is to support you and try to encourage you to remain safe and allow yourself to be shown the way forward to a better future. For not only you, but also your little girl and your Mum.

Love and a hug to you. 💞🤗

Emelia 🌺