My Mosaic

Challenging because it's all basically been taken out of my hands. She asked for some input from me, but she is then going to make the decisions around what I eat. It feels like so much bloody food. Even the tiniest of things that I have outside of what I feel is safe and ok at the moment, ie: breakfast and dinner, makes me feel absolutely horrible. Makes me feel so overwhelmed. She's gonna have me eating 3 meals and 3 snacks. How can I do that????? I can't. I can't do it. Might as well just quit now

@Bow it definitely is really hard to feel like it's out of your hands. Ultimately it is your body, and your choice, be it choosing to follow her plan or not. Big changes like this can only happen with little steps over time (which is frustrating far more often than it is reassuring... I know).

I hope it helps, even the teensiest amount, knowing that we all believe in you to be able to do this!

I'm not worth it I'm really not I'll go I'm really sorry

sorry

That is okay @Bow, do what you need to do. Hope you can find something distracting/soothing to help - and in my mind you are always worth my time, whether you agree or not

@Bow 😔💝

Hi there @Jynx 👋

@Emelia8 Hiya Lovely to see you!

hugs my @Bow , sitting with you my darling xoxo

Some days are just down right harder than others. When the noise inside my head is louder and angrier. When the hatred I feel towards myself compares to nothing else. When the darkness is all consuming and is desperate to take over. When I just want the world to swallow me up and disappear. Nothing matters on those days. Caring doesn't exist. Si is scary. Continuing feels really hard.

today is one of them days.

@Bow 👂

Your mind is being very cruel to you right now it would seem... You deserve support, and compassion, and kindness, even if your mind is telling you that you don't.

I'll sit with you a while ❣️Bow ❣️

Can I sit with you both too @Bow @Anastasia ? 💝

I just made a cuppa, and treating myself to a slice of coconut buttercake. A storm is brewing here, thunder rumbling away ominously and its very humid and sticky. Light rain starting now too. Hope no wind.

@Eve7 @Shaz51 would you like to join us for u cuppa too? ☕ I have plenty of cake. 🍰

Emelia 🌸