My Mosaic

I'm sorry to hear @Bow

You're possibly back now, I hope it went ok 🙏

I'm the same, feel like I'm just a body, numb really. No tears today so far at least.

Dad not good just dropped of some helpful meds for him.

Thanks @Anastasia my dietitian appointment was really difficult. She could see through my recovery record app that I have been really struggling with my restrictive eating and excessive exercise and that I am significantly under nourished- she is concerned. She has basically taken the reigns, with a little input from me and put together a meal plan. She has not done this before. She is also going to get in contact with my psychologist and figure out a way to get on top of the exercise issue.

Ive come home and am doing only what I know to do and exercise.... or physically exert myself by mowing the lawns. Just having a drink break.

I feel overwhelmed by the plan that my dietitian has put in place. Taken control.... I told her that, that she is taking that control away from me and she said that she understood and could appreciate how difficult that is, but says that it's what I need. She explained it that by doing trauma work while being under nourished is basically putting trauma on top of trauma.

I feel defeat. Why does everything have to be so bloody hard.

back to it!

Oh @Bow I hear you and I'm so sorry. Please stay safe ok?

I'm devastated my boy is having a covid test for another hospital admission 💔 @Eve7 @Emelia8 @Peregrinefalcon @HenryX @NatureLover @Appleblossom @Sophia1

@Bow @Anastasia 👀👂💓

I am so sorry @Bow I wish life was a lot easier for you. It’s not fair and it sux you are going through all this. Big hugs 🤗🙏🤗

@Anastasia oh no that is not good about your boy. Hugs for you my dear friend.

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I’m going to put on my big girl pants and update “”my thread”.

That's feeling like a really hard thing to do today @Anastasia

I'm really sorry about your boy @Anastasia 😞

thanks @Emelia8 @Eve7 @Anastasia

I've really had enough of today it's been too hard. I don't know how to do what she wants me to do just want to go disappear

@Bow I'm sorry today has been so hard for you. I'm here with you, if you want to talk about it. Or if you just want company

@Jynx I did not expect my dietitian to take the approach that she did today. Honestly thought she would just give up on me today. I just don't know if I can do what she wants me to do. Maybe I just need to stop. Stop waisting her time.

Sounds like it was a challenging appointment - perhaps because you expected to be given up on. That's not a nice feeling at all, and yet when she didn't give up on you, maybe that hurt too because it doesn't match your internal view of yourself.

I can really hear that part of you wants to give up on yourself right now. But you are so far from being a waste of time, for any that are supporting you. Being there for others is its own reward.

Is there one simple, nice thing you can do for yourself tonight @Bow?