My Mosaic

My psych called me this morning, guess one of the advantages of her working at community mh. She was really glad that I called last night.

still really struggling today. Not ok. I don't know what the answer is.

Thinking of you today @Bow and thanks for your support yesterday.

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Hey there Bow,

Just checking in to see how you're going. Have you been able look after yourself and prioritise your wellbeing today/this afternoon? I hope you're managing okay.

Ryhe ☘️

No. Not very ok. Trying to decide whether I should call my psychologist again. She said she's in till 5, and to call if I need. Just don't wanna be that person.

If you need to call your psychologist for some support right now @Bow then please do so. She will not think any less of you. She has asked you to call her if you ever need to.

In fact I expect she would be disappointed if you did not feel able, or chose not, to call her and then found yourself in a really bad place.

Please call her ... she is there to help you.

Emelia 💝

Hi @Bow,

I just wanted to acknowledge the steps you have taken to reach out today, and it sounds like you are considering which options might be a good next step to ensure you get the level of support you deserve tonight.

Reaching out to your support network sounds like a really good plan today If you do need to speak to someone, and after 5pm, are there crisis support or 1:1 services you will reach out to if you need extra support tonight?

The SANE Helpcentre is still open as well if you want someone to chat to right now

Give her a call my @Bow 🥰

Sitting with you my friend xx

I decided to go have a long shower. There is not much more anyone can really do, otherwise my psych would of said something earlier today when we spoke I would think. Talking is not really going to change anything. I still have flashbacks and nightmares. They are still overwhelming. I just have to somehow get to Friday's appointment and hope that she can help. I just have to somehow survive. I don't know how.

I can call the comm mh after hours emergency number again, not that they can do much. I just find myself quickly back tracking when I've said too much and they talk about calling 000.

just need to survive. Somehow.

It's a really hard day here for all of us.

my dad was taken off to hospital this morning. He has a terminal condition which has got worse this past week. Mum fears this is the beginning of the end for him. She couldn't go to the hospital with him cause she isn't vaxed. She is angry and upset that she might not be able to say goodbye. I feel frustrated that she has made this choice and convinced my dad too.

feel like I have to put all my own stuff on the sideline so that I can be there for my Mum. But in all honesty I just don't have anything to give. Mum has no idea that I am dealing with so much, so it just complicate it all so much more. She just won't understand.

my daughter comes home from school today is a fool mood, the dog chewed up something that she made and took it out on the dog. Mum cries. I don't know what to say.

how can I be strong for everyone else when I am simple falling apart inside.