My Mosaic

Then you wouldn't be here for your D hon @Bow

You are worth it and were worth fighting for.

Stay here with me hon.

I don't think it matters what the story line is in these shows, any ambulance.... even police trigger me. I was sitting on my bed today and I heard sirens. They were getting closer. It flung me back to recent days. I had no reason to think that they were coming for me, but I panicked and was waiting for them to come barging through the door. Maybe someone called them.
and then watching this show tonight, triggers me again. And to have story lines similar to what I did. I wish things were different. I hate that my life is just wasting away. Another year. Why do I even bother trying anymore. She doesn't need me, she's told me that. Didn't even want to spend today with me, wanted to go to her fathers. 😔 just another kick in the guts when I'm already down.

Is there something you can do for yourself whilst you wait for your meds to kick in @Bow ?

I know I colour or do word finds when I am waiting for my meds to work.

Just crawled into bed and will scroll for a big. Hopefully they kick in soon @Snowie

@Bow aww this is why systemic trauma is the worst - the things that are supposed to be protective are the triggers.

I know you're feeling pretty rough with everything on your mind, do you feel a little lighter being able to talk about it here?

Not particularly @Jynx just managed to work myself up even more

sorry

Hopefully they kick in soon @Bow and that you can get some sleep tonight.

Hoping tomorrow is better for you.

Not something to be sorry for in my eyes @Bow, maybe you needed to get those emotions out. Have your meds helped at all?

I'm signing off soon but you can always tag in the next @Former-Member if you need to. Today is nearly over, maybe it's just about keeping your mind occupied by other things until you can drift off.

Sending a big pile of soothing thoughts

Thanks @Jynx @Snowie for being here. Appreciate it.

meds haven't really kicked in yet, it will hit me suddenly usually.

@Snowie you got plans for tomorrow?

My meds normally kick in suddenly too @Bow

No real plans for tomorrow. Hopefully go for a walk if I can motivate myself.

Have you got anything on?