My Mosaic

I have some early morning sport both days @Bow and a breakfast outing.

Do you have anything in?

Tired today.
Why do nightmares feel so real when you try go about your day but everything feels yuck. Feels yuck. Can’t detach from it.

Hey @Bow,

Nightmares can really linger sometimes, they can be horrible

Even when we're awake and know it wasn't real, the feelings can stick around and make the whole day feel a bit off

Sorry you're having one of those yuck days. Be gentle with yourself today.

Has anything helped take the edge off, even a little?

Thanks @Nala2022 yeah that’s what it’s like today.

I had a wrestle with my daughter. That was a bit grounding. And then sat in the sun for a bit with my cat.

I'm glad you're finding ways to ground yourself. Even if it only helps a little @Bow

Sometimes it's those small moments that can make a big difference

Hello @Bow,

I hear you - up in the air is not really regulation-friendly, is it? 😣 How has the last week been and what has been helping you to manage the uncertainty?

Have you been able to see your psychologist? So many people are sick right now! I have had a terrible cough too. 🥲

Oh, it sounds like this trip might be rather enjoyable, albeit vulnerable at times... I wonder what might help you to come back to yourself in more challenging moments?

I am okay! Things have been rather busy, but I am getting there - I have been finding regular journaling has been helpful. Have you been doing much writing? 🫶

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@Eve7 wrote:

Hello @AuntGlow I think I’ve returned to normal life after my European / UK holiday. It’s been a big transition.

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Ooh tell me about your holiday!! @Eve7 🤩

I can imagine it has been a big transition. What is life looking like at the moment? 💛

Hey @AuntGlow

got no idea what I last told ya sorry, feels too long ago. I’m assuming in regards to my supports, especially my SW perhaps? She has continued to be rather… I don’t like to say it, but it’s what she is… useless. She has continued to make many promises… commitments and never follows through. I didn’t see her at all last week, but she said many times that she was coming! Not real sure how to manage all the uncertainty. A lot of unhealthy and unhelpful behaviors unfortunately.

I haven’t seen my psychologist in ages. Missed 2 cause I was sick and then called to confirm for Thursday just gone and for whatever reason he couldn’t see me. I don’t know if he has some kind of 2 misses and then out? Cause it happened before too. But I have an appointment for this Thursday. And then I’ll have one more and then I’m going to miss 3 again cause of our tassie trip. It’s frustrating.

my interim CM is away for 2 weeks. Last week I had a gp appointment and then a hospital follow up appointment which I had to suck up and go alone cause I have zero trust or safety with my SW. it was really crappy, especially the hospital appointment. The next day I had a pdoc appointment…. Another new one. SW ended up being sick and some random called. Umm no I don’t want some random old foreign lady coming with me to a new pdoc appointment. That ended up being cancel 1/2before and my interim interim CM made the call… told her I was not ok with everything and she told me to still come in and see her.
I cried and was a blabbering mess with her. Felt stupid. But it was all just too much. I vented all my grrrrs about my supports. SW and psychologist.

my ear is still giving me grief too. Gp said bubbles have cleared by fluid still there and basically just have to let it drain naturally. Last few days it’s mostly been ok. I wake with it blocked but it clears and I only just notice it through the day. But today it has constantly been blocked and can’t shift it.

Think I’m going to make the most of being close to the beach during our trip. When I need some time I’ll escape there.

yeah feels like y’all have been heaps busy. Haven’t really seen anyone around. Journalling is good. I’ve been art journaling.- so not much writing.
also been building a bit of Lego. And playing some games with my D. My brother in Tas is a big games player… loves uno. I hate it! So going to take some of the games we play and teach him them. Oh…. Just thinking…. Was playing a game today and realised I struggled with it. The focus. Remembering. Thinking. I’m playing it now without my stimulant med. Maybe that’s why!

Are you doing anymore performances?

anyways that was a lot. Hope your around for a bit to chat.

I went on a European river cruise for 2 weeks @AuntGlow along the Danube and Rhine through 5 countries and then spent 3 weeks in the UK.?it was all amazing.

Now I’m just trying to reset my life which has been rather difficult. I’m just staying home and cancelling lots of commitments. I suppose this will pass.’

Hey @Bow @Snowie @Eve7 how we all doing?

Sorry to read about your ongoing frustrations with your SW Bow, makes things so hard!

Hope you are going okay lovely Snowie 💜

Any highlights from your trip Eve? Sounds amazing!!

Cancelling commitments to look after yourself is sucky, but so valid.