My Mosaic

@Bow wishing you a good day today sweetheart and hoping you got some sleep last night 💕💕💕

While laying in bed for the majority of today I have realised that I am not very good at seeking out supports when I most need them. I perhaps reach out when I am too far gone.

I feel myself sinking at the moment. I hate recovery. I hate how it feels. I absolutely hate how it physically feels. My body does not like it and neither does my mind. Today I am choosing my ED cause it feels easier. Choosing to entertain the SI that envelope my mind.

I cancelled my psychologist appointment for tomorrow. It feels easier than seeing her knowing that she is leaving, I just don't want to be vulnerable with someone that is not invested in my recovery anymore. It feels easier to not deal with why recovery is so bloody hard and for someone to tell me I am doing the wrong thing.

I was suppose to have a phone call with my peer support worker this afternoon. I ignored that call too. I'll text or email her later and explain. Think perhaps she will understand a bit more.

just want the world to swallow me up.

im ok

Hi @Bow

Here with you hon.

Sounds like you are having a hard day trying to deal with everything you have too.

We are here for you sweetie and sitting with you 💕💕💕

Super hard day today @Snowie so flat and low don't know why I even try

Oh sweetheart, in sorry to hear this. Reaching out and giving you a really big squishy hug. I hear you hunny @Bow 😔🤗💖🙏💞

@Bow here with you sweetheart. Hoping today goes better for you.

Reach out for support if you need it.

Love ya hon 💜💜💜💜

Anyone around today?

Hi @Bow

Are you ok sweety?

Rough day today..,, no @Anastasia

Hey @Bow, I'm around and here to talk. Sorry you're having a hard day. What's been going on for you?