My Mosaic

Morning @Bow

I hope your mum got off ok hon. I realise this time will be difficult for you.

I know your dietitian is someone you can talk too, hoping your appt. goes well.

Crossing all my fingers in the hope that your SW is back today.

You don't have these kittens for long. Not like the last group that you had.

Wishing you a good day today hon. Sending lots of 💕💕

Been moping around the house. Feel a bit lost, not sure what to do, zero motivation, not a good start to mum being away.

mum got off fine.

my dietitian appointment went ok. Talked about what’s been happening. Did some planning for while mum is away. My ED is always loud during this time, mums not around to makes sure I eat right. Talked about the possible admission in early April and what that will look like and what supports I may need. Then also talked about my D’s eating issues, which I really appreciated and she said she is fine based on what she is eating etc. So at least that is good.

have just found out my SW is away the rest of the week. I nearly cried. I messaged another SW asking if she was back. I also asked if it would be ok if I came into the office to say hi to my old SW and if she could message me or if I could have her number…… this SW replied that my SW is still away and that I am welcome to come into the office any time. ….. this reply annoyed me. How will I know if my old SW is available if I come in anytime? What if everyone is out doing supports or meetings etc? Feel shutdown. Rejected. Pushing the tears more to the surface.

don’t feel ok. I’m scared

Hey @Bow

Sounds like an emotional and exhausting day hon.

Just getting through it is a big step

I hope you've been able to have a rest this afternoon 💗💗 or at least do something nice for yourself.

Hi @Snowie

feeling really lonely and isolated

how r u?

Hi @Bow

With your mum gone and SW away it is understandable that you are feeling that way

I'm ok, just tired.

Urgh @Snowie

I just remembered I suppose to go meet with this male psychologist tomorrow morning. 9am

anxiety

yuck yuck

yuck

oh dear @Bow

No doubt it brings up a lot of emotions for you hon.

Can you try and break it down into baby steps.

Step 1 - Drive to comm mh, Step 2 - go inside, Step 3 - go into the room, Step 4 - start to talk, etc

Hi @Bow ,

I'm so sorry to hear you are struggling, especially with your mum away and your support worker not being available this week. It makes sense that you are feeling lost and unsettled with so much change. Sometimes taking things hour by hour can help. I'm also really glad you were able to get some support from your Dietician in making a plan.

You mentioned your ED being extra loud this week with your mum away - I encourage you to reach out to the Butterfly Foundation National ED Helpline - 1800 33 4673 (8am - 12am / 7 days a week) if you need that extra support.

You are never alone! Thinking of you💓

~ @Honeymoon

I can try @Snowie just have very little capacity at the moment for anything. Absolute panic has set in. I totally forgot about it. Ideally I need more time to mentally prepare.

Hi @Honeymoon

sometimes I can’t even do hour by hour, find myself just sitting in some paralyzed freeze state. And so much time passes by.
then I get frustrated with myself that I’ve done nothing and have been lazy.
I know…. I have very little compassion or kindness or anything positive to offer myself.

thanks for the reminder re: butterfly. Maybe I’ll give them a try